somewhat unexpected

            WEDNESDAY 10/30/19 11:15 AM--I caught a cold...I think Dianne still has hers, so I dunno how I caught this one...I've got Vitamin C gummies and chicken noodle soup...I'm a bit worried about going to practice tonight and (a bit less) the gigs with Stu...I gotta take a shower before I leave for Mike's...after which I hope to put on a pair of compression socks...
                   THURSDAY 10/31/19 3:30 AM--wearing the white compression socks, no plans to take 'em off anytime soon...don't know if they're actually working...
  8:48 AM--just waiting for the girls to get here, do the cleaning and leave...I've already been to the grocery store...
FRIDAY--11/1/19 5:50 AM--they arrived at about 11:30...I went to the Library; they were gone when I got back--at 12:30...Some guys are coming sometime today (between 1 and 5) to install the counter tops...I have no idea how long they'll be here or exactly when they'll get here...*I* don't think it should take more than an hour...But I bet it will...I hope they'll show up at one o'clock and be gone by 2:30 at the latest...then I can (hopefully) catch a few winks...OR--maybe they'll show up at three o'clock and be gone by the time Dianne gets home, at about 4:30 or so...
   12:42 PM--Dianne got the job!!! Now she can leave the place that's making her miserable...there is a bit of a pay cut, but I dunno how much...so she'll be pinching pennies a bit now too...
2:30 PM- the guys are here installing the counter tops and the sink...they might be gone by 3:30 or so...somebody else is coming on Monday to work on the plumbing...THEN (I think) the Project will be finished...
SATURDAY 11/2/19 12:27 AM--later this afternoon, I will begin bringing Dianne's Kitchen stuff back upstairs...a bit of a Gov't Project perhaps, but I've nothing else to do...I hope to have the rest of Saturday to recover from having two gigs in two days...I think we're having Sunday Brunch w/Alvijan...I should be OK by then...I think maybe I've possibly gotten over my cold...
    8 PM--I'm still a teeny bit under the weather--and there's an FHB practice scheduled for tomorrow...I won't be going to brunch w/Dianne and her parents...I might need to go to the grocery store in the morning to get (if nothing else) Sunday's Dinner...
9:56 PM--have no idea when I'm going to bed--I think we set the clocks BACK an hour...which may mean that when my body wakes up at 5 or 6 it will really only be 4 or 5 AM...

the emotional roller coaster

         SUNDAY 10/27/19 8 PM--I needed to do as little as possible today...but I was quite busy in the 1180 Lab...and fairly busy working on the laptop, generating documents relating to one of my Musical endeavors, specifically the FHB...maybe not physically, but otherwise, a LOT of work...
        Perhaps I should know why I'm gonna see Dr. Rana Monday morning and/or what he's gonna do--but I don't...I guess I'm gonna be having a late Lunch and because of that, a late Dinner...I'm practicing with ITN on Wednesday and (I think) gigging with Stu on Thursday AND Friday...as for Tuesday, I don't think I have any plans--yet...
MONDAY 10/28/19 10:50 AM-- leaving for the Doctor's in about 40 minutes...I hope I'm home by 1:30 if not sooner...but who knows?
9:42 PM--the visit with Dr. Rana went well enough...after that I came home and had a late Lunch...I then took a late nap...and ultimately had a late Dinner...the rest of my day was spent in the 1180 Lab and doing Laundry...that led to organizing my clothes closet...I've got WAY too much clothing...I found stuff I feel like I've never seen before, including a pair of cargo pants...
            If I decide to donate some of the clothes, I should try them on first...There's more Laundry to do on Tuesday--the light colored clothing and socks...it seems like I'm running low on socks...
TUESDAY 10/29/19 7:37 AM--doing laundry, going to Safeway...I have an appointment with Kathy to get my hair cut...could be back home by two o'clock...
9:06 PM--got the haircut, got home at about 1:30 or so...got a bit of an e-mail scare...my vehicle registration is due--on 12/31/19...gonna start saving, to come up with $135 bucks...
      It never fails--when I'm NOT looking for the thing I had been looking for, I find it...specifically, I'm talking about the piece of paper I got from Dr. Rana...I'm supposed to be wearing a compression sock day and night...and so I will--starting sometime tomorrow...dunno for sure, but I think I'm supposed to wear one on each leg...

typical

                  TUESDAY 10/22/19 5:12 PM--I hate it when someone gets applauded for doing something I already did...I thought I sent it out to the other members of the Full House Band...maybe not...I somehow managed to remove a logo from a t-shirt...and I DIDN'T use Photoshop...I used some app that's been on my phone for quite awhile...
         9:20 PM--gonna be a busy day tomorrow...a doctor's appointment, a band rehearsal...maybe gonna do laundry, might put new strings on eBay...
     WEDNESDAY 10/23/19 7:18 AM--dunno how much "Lab work" I'm gonna get to today...actually already did some...at 8AM I'll get started changing the strings--maybe...
12:15 PM--did some more Lab work, didn't put new strings on eBay--yet...went to the Doctor's office...after Lunch it will be nap time, until about three o'clock...
      THURSDAY 10/24/19 7:07 AM--taking Muzzy to the groomers soon...thankfully, that's WAY easier than dealing with the Cat...hopefully they'll be done by two o'clock or so, but it wouldn't surprise me if they weren't, in which case I'll pick her up after the load-in...I think I have until 6 or 7 PM...Of course at 7 o'clock I'll hopefully be on my way to the OTWC to have Dinner...
    FRIDAY 10/25/19 1:23 AM--got a call from Jon Reeve (of the Off the Wall Band) yesterday as I was getting ready go to the OTWC...he seemed to be very perceptive with regards to my depression-- I hope he meant the very nice things he said...I can't EVEN believe he's a Chump supporter, but apparently he is...that shouldn't stop us from playing Music together as far as I'M concerned...
      8:20 AM--pondering the repercussions of last night's "conflict" with Stoney...I AM gonna miss the money, if in fact I'm no longer a member of the FHB...I don't think I'm gonna fight to keep the job...I could be wrong, but I think Stoney owes ME an apology...
       I keep forgetting, even if Angela is in love with ME, nothing can happen...although I DO think maybe, if only briefly, I could, er, uh, "get it up" for her...but we'll never ever know...
           1:24 PM--I'd say nap time is about an hour away...I'd like at least 90 minutes if possible...I feel like I need that much...after which I will be taking a walk, MAYBE without the dog just for a change of pace, for lack of a better phrase...just might take a different route as well...to break up the monotony...

what day is it?

      SATURDAY 10/19/19 5:09 PM--went to Unique, bought nothing...went to Giant, bought groceries...I'm staying in tonight as far as *I* know, saving my energy for band practice tomorrow after Lunch...I'm thinking if it wasn't for Band practice, I would think TODAY was Sunday...
             6:36 PM--Judging from the photo that Angela put on Flakebook, I think it's likely that she knows (more or less) how I feel about her...I'm just estimating, but I would say 25% of the photo is made up of her boobs...Women tell men to control themselves then they dress provocatively...that seems to me to be very hypocritical...Generally, if Women aren't dressing to be noticed by Men, who are they dressing for? But of course, I know there IS a middle ground between a glance and rape... 
     SUNDAY 10/20/19 10:15 AM- thanks to Dianne,  I now have SiriusXM radio on my laptop… And I’ve already got several Favorites; so now, instead of keeping the TV on in the background while I “surf the web” I can listen to music- and not just iTunes or my CDs…I might not leave the house--unless I have to...
11:34 AM--at this point in time, there’s still band practice – in spite of the rainy weather...
8:34 PM--we had practice--I don't wanna talk about it...the dog is sick, from what, I have no idea...I think we're going to the vet tomorrow morning...
    MONDAY 10/21/19 12:37 PM--and that't what we did...now I'm just waiting to hear back from Banfield...I kinda feel like I didn't have a weekend, I feel like I was fairly busy...and parts of this week will be like that...Wednesday is a practice with the Off the Wall Band I think and Thursday is of course the open mic...Saturday I'm planning on going to Laurel to (briefly) sit in with OTW...NEXT Wednesday is rehearsal with the Snowdawgz and Thursday the 31st is the gig...
 1:06 PM--Banfield just called...I can go pick up Muzzy; I told them I'd be there within the hour...I should be back by 2PM...what happens then, I dunno...

somebody up there likes me, tonight anyway...

         SATURDAY  10/19/19 12:02 AM--so I went to Hershey's to hear a new band...all the players are acquaintances of mine...they were (IMO) just OK...it sounded strange to me to hear a Woman singing songs that a Man would normally sing...and her voice just doesn't seem strong enough to me to be singing rock&roll...
     Two of my FHB band mates were there--Stoney and Barnaby...I was stunned to find out that Barnaby allegedly feels the same way about Stoney as I do; we both think he needs to be less rigid with regard to how we play Music...A few folks were quite complimentary about my Musical ability...that was a surprise...I don't know what to make of that...
        Lou showed up, another surprise...we're making Plans to go to the Hershey's open mic hosted by Jackie!!! and we are gonna try to rehearse the same day...on top of that, Angela appeared...Of course, that made a mess outta me...
       But the biggest most significant thing to happen to me was thinking that I'd lost my spare car key...it's not easy to start the car with the original key...it turns out the spare key was IN THE FRONT PASSENGER DOOR...it's a miracle to me that, beat up though it may be, the car was still in Hershey's parking lot...
        Lately the car engine was starting to develop a knocking sound, fairly quiet though it may have been...so I checked the oil...the engine appeared to have not so much as a drop in it...I remedied that...the noise seems to have stopped...
            I think Dianne and I are going to Unique later today...I have no plans to go out tonight...as far as I know the Combustibles are practicing Sunday at 1:30...other than the ringing in my ears, Life is Good...
     

surprised that I remembered how to do it

         FRIDAY 10/18/19 8:09 AM--I created another anti-Chump meme last night when I came home from practice...then I was inspired to try a Full House Band meme...and after a few "almosts", I got it done...I sent it to Butch to approve or disapprove of...I think he likes it...

          I can't believe I was able, after a couple of tries, to be able to insert it in this Post...It took awhile to find a satisfactory picture of all five of us...the original phrase was "Nothing beats..." but it turns out a full house can be beaten by a Royal Flush...

          What I can't yet fix is the way I "type"  somehow I've messed up something...whatever I type is being added from right to left and I dunno how to fix that...maybe I don't need to, but I want to...A MINUTE LATER...hey, I think I just fixed it...something to do with the Alignment...

     As soon as I said (out loud) that it was a good day, little things started going a teeny bit wrong...but I took care of everything...and now (whispers) we can get back to that good day...

1 PM--and it's still a good day...I thought about going out tonight, but it hurts to see a Band change members and feel like I wasn't even considered...

       It’s part of that feeling unwanted by the local Music community...I think the FHB was formed by Butch, which possibly means he’s kinda in Charge, right? I’m willing to bet that Butch is the reason I’m still in the Band...not that Stoney and Barnaby are perfect...

               5:11 PM--I suddenly found myself working on a Gov't Project...replacing the litter box and the litter itself...I really wanna be there when the garbage men come...I put the used litter in a bag, put THAT bag in the same kinda bag, and put THAT in a big green bag...but I'm still a bit worried...

6:35 PM--of course I'm going out tonight...

a day wasted? not really

              WEDNESDAY 10/16/19 5:30 AM--leaving for the Medical Facility soon...I don't call it a hospital and it's not merely a collection of Doctors' offices...I seem to be stressing myself out wondering how long we're gonna be there...I would like to be home by 2 PM, but it could be later...I wish I could remember how long we were there the last time, but I can't...I'm bringing a book to read...I think there's a cafeteria in the building...If so, I might not have to worry about Lunch...
               In financial news, the last time I checked, my SSA money WASN'T in the Bank...maybe that's because of Columbus Day...just checked again--it's still not in there...I think there's still $124 in my checking account...I like that; I hope to use it to pay off some of my credit card balance to CapOne...Considering all the gigs I think I have coming up, I just might send them an even $200...which would leave a bit more than $200 that I owe...
    11:35 AM--got back from Dianne's procedure about a half an hour ago...I think we're BOTH gonna take a nap after Lunch...I'm having mine now...after my nap, I need to go to a grocery store...Otherwise, I dunno what I'm gonna have for Dinner...
4:26 PM--The roomie has her $165 and I have $120 to last a week...I don't have any gigs until next Thursday...I have FHB practice tomorrow and Combustibles practice on Sunday...I might let my gig money accumulate until the CapOne credit card is due...that's on November the 8th...
5:03 PM--I really REALLY wanna start that "winding down" procedure now...The Melatonin I took last night was kinda useless...I guess it's up to ME to stop the flood of thoughts that keep me awake...I think I need to deliberately LISTEN to the "rain" I hear in my room...

a tech nightmare and other stuff

         SUNDAY 10/13/19 9:07 PM--I wanted to put one of my musical "joins" on Facebook...there's no easy way to do that as far as *I* know...I think it took about an hour or more...first I shot a video, then I added an mp3 from my iTunes Library...to do THAT, I had to use an app that I believe is free...I THINK I accomplished my mission, but I dunno for sure and I'm not even sure how to find out...
      MONDAY 10/14/19 8:45 AM--tech mission accomplished...I still have a nagging feeling I've got something to do today, but I can't remember what that something is--if in fact, there IS something on my "to do" list...last night I tried out the sleep inducing sound machine that I got yesterday... it seems to work...
4:50 PM--I don't think "washing the rags" was the something I felt I had to do today, but it is/was the day to wash them because the girls are coming tomorrow...
      Dianne's surgery is on Wednesday, so FHB practice has to be Thursday...I got a surprise in my e-mail today...the gig money was in my PayPal account...I transferred it to my checking account...I think I'm gonna make a Cap One credit card payment on Thursday or Friday...
7:30 PM--sometimes, well a lot of times, I forget that I'm supposed to be winding down after Dinner...I don't think I should do anything that excites me...whether it's computer/tech stuff or keyboard practice...
       TUESDAY 10/1/19 1:10 PM--the gig money is in my checking account...I took $25 out and added it to the $5 I had in my pocket...I bought groceries and some hardware...I've got $20 to last me all day...I don't think I'll be buying anything else today...Dinner is paid for...
          But I'm going to Baskin-Robbins for dessert...actually, it's the roomie that wants to go; she's kinda stressed out because there's so much going on in HER Life...I know it's not the same, but I feel like I've got too much going on in my Musical Life...
6:12 PM--and although I'M not the one having an operation, I'm not looking forward to spending several hours in the Doctor's Office...

why now?

                SATURDAY 10/12/19 8:40 AM--Dianne had business to tend to at Home Depot; the kitchen remodeling project had hit a rough patch of road...I have a pretty strong temper, which sometimes kicks in when SHE'S angry...it  tends to happen when we are fighting, but it can happen when she's mad at someone else...So before we went to Home Depot to find out why the kitchen remodeling project seemed to be hitting a roadblock...I took two Xanax and then a few minutes later, another one...The visit to Home Depot was peaceful...
       I made it to about 10:30 before I went to bed...I slept until about 7:30 AM...there was a bathroom visit at some point (not exactly sure when) but I went back to sleep...I had a dream in which Dianne and I were hanging out with Lena (!) somewhere, I don't think it was Australia, but who knows? I think Lena had a companion, but he kept drifting in and out of the dream..She took us to some kind of church--it was super informal, but they asked certain people to introduce themselves...I was one of those people...I kept trying to stay close to Lena, but then I'd think better of it...if the dream means anything *I* dunno what that is...Thought about telling her but then I realized that was pointless...she could hardly be further away...I still find it hard to believe she's actually IN Australia...she was/is almost dangerously "quirky"...
SUNDAY 10/13/19 10:10 AM--I think Lena really wanted to end her marriage, but for all I know she could be in California or Canada...
          As for me, today, I don't WANT to do anything, but at some point I'll cave in and do something out of boredom...
7:38 PM--I got the sound machine today...the idea is that whatever sound I pick will help me fall asleep...I'll try the babbling brook sound tonight...the cleaning ladies are coming sometime on TUESDAY instead of Thursday...Dianne's surgery is on Wednesday...we have to be at the doctor's office in Bethesda at about 6:30 AM--UGH...I have no idea when we'll be back...and of course I'll be taking care of her all day Wednesday...NO band practices (or anything else) for me...
         I don't think I mentioned this earlier--the lenses popped out of my glasses...I found one of them...haven't found the other one--yet...it would cost a perverted amount of money to replace it...I'm wearing the pair of glasses I had before the latest pair...*I* think they're working just as well; maybe they don't look as good on my face, but I have no reason to care about that...

talk about contrast

          WEDNESDAY 10/9/19 8:26 AM--just  about the first thing I did after getting outta bed was drop my glasses on the basement steps...BOTH lenses popped out, but I found one of them...VERY upsetting...
         Yesterday I was trying to put ALL the verses of MY BACK PAGES on my tablet, but was unable to...this morning I did it, in less than thirty minutes...THAT makes me happy...I suspect my Tech smarts come and go randomly...
     I strongly suspect the Alzheimer's is getting worse...when I went to bed I didn't know that the driver's side door was wide open...it rained overnight...it's a miracle the trunk wasn't broken into...
THURSDAY 10/10/19 11:14 PM--went to an open mic tonight, played a solo set, hung out,etc. I really wanna stay home Friday evening...
FRIDAY 10/11/19 7:25 AM--and that's still the plan for today...I might/should put that free set of electric guitar strings on Butterscotch...we'll see...12:28 PM--and so I did...
  5:15 PM--Dianne is in a lousy mood...and I haven't had such a great afternoon either...it's gonna be a very very looooooooong evening I imagine...I dunno what I'm gonna have for Dinner, I don't yet have much of an appetite...
SATURDAY 10/12/19 8:34 AM--I ended up sharing a Papa John's pizza with Dianne for Dinner...that was after going to Home Depot to take care of business and AFTER going to Baskin-Robbins for ice cream...

the days are starting to melt together

      MONDAY 10/7/19 9:45 PM--other than the inevitable visit to a grocery store, I don't have any plans for tomorrow...until band practice, that is...and I need to start prepping for whatever the FHB is up to...I THINK there's a gig in November and another one in December...EDIT--yep, in November in Rockville at the Elks Lodge on Taft Ct. off of Gude Drive...
        I'm hoping to get back on the Vyvance on Wednesday morning...Doing w/o it may be the cause of me feeling a bit "oogy"...and of course I have a problem with headaches whenever the seasons change...
TUESDAY 10/8/19 4:54 PM--I starting to feel like there's too much on my plate...between Doctors' appointments and band practices, I don't always know if I'm coming or going...

it's starting to come back to me

       FRIDAY 10/4/19 12:32 AM--spent the past hour or so playing with the tablet...adding song lyrics, and in some cases coloring the verses *I* sing...the tablet fits the mike stand holder IF I take the cover off...and I don't think I need to be on any wi-fi if all I'm doing is reading song lyrics (documents)...
              I don't think anything special is going on tomorrow...
6:44 AM--TECH NEWS--I created and printed a list of my upcoming gigs, with my phone while laying in bed...it was fairly easy...11:39AM--on the other hand, there was another TECH WAR and I don't think I won that one...I think/hope I cancelled my mail subscription to The Week magazine...I THINK I'll still be receiving the online version...
         SATURDAY 10/5/19 7:25 PM--just got home from having Dinner with the former in-laws...gonna hang around the house this evening...tomorrow might be a busy day...I have a nagging feeling something's going on, but I'm not sure...
10:23 PM--I went to the Germantown flea market...I bought a box set of 7 CDs for $7...I just finished loading certain songs from them into my iTunes Library...
11:37 PM--gonna try using the Google calendar more...just gotta get used to it...still learning how to do certain things on my tablet...like stopping the flood of notifications on FB
  SUNDAY 10/6/19 8:30 AM--the most stressful thing I do on a semi- regular basis is load the cat into the crate...that's coming up soon...
5:06PM--it was a MAJOR pain in the ass to get that dammed cat in the crate--but I did it...
11:22PM--the cabinet guys are coming sometime tomorrow...Dianne has implied they won't be staying too long; I hope that's true...
MONDAY 10/7/19 9:05AM--the cabinet guys have been and gone...I went to the supermarket at about 6:30AM...soon I will go to Pritchard to exchange one (wrong) set of guitar strings for the right ones...hopefully...11 AM==well the set of strings I brought home is closer to what I wanted, maybe...
 11:07AM--I dunno why, but I thought it was Tuesday...it's not, of course...so I'm not going to Colesville tonight...SHEESH...

that'll teach ya--hopefully

      TUESDAY 10/1/19 11:14PM--I made a disparaging remark about a certain local Musician...he's very popular and well-known...and I made the comment in the presence of his Bass Player...PERFECT...I figure I'll have trouble getting any sleep tonight...but not because of the procedure I'm having done tomorrow morning, but because of the HUGE slip of the tongue I'm guilty of...
        I wonder how long it will take Stephen to get in touch with John to tell him what I said...and I wonder what the repercussions will be...I'm pretty sure my reputation within the MontCo Musical community is already less than flattering...like the less than complimentary way *I* think of certain Musicians I'm acquainted with...
WEDNESDAY 10/2/19 10:11AM-- so I had the [procedure] done on my right leg...the entire visit lasted about one hour and fifteen minutes...losing control of my bladder was a HUGE bummer, but that's behind me..luckily the procedure was the only item on my calendar for today--as far as I can remember...the doctor said I have to walk for about 10 minutes out of every hour, unless I'm asleep--like an after Lunch nap...the first day is the most complex/hectic...I have to wear this compression sock for 24 straight hours...no running (ha!) or swimming (HA HA!)
          Somewhere around 11AM I'm gonna drive to the Bank then walk to Safeway...the plan is to buy a frozen mini pizza for tonight's Dinner and (maybe) some Fudgesicles...then I'll come home, have Lunch and hopefully take a nap...after which, I'll take another walk...probably take one more after Dinner...
       THURSDAY 10/3/19 12:12 AM--the cleaning ladies are coming sometime today but I dunno when...I don't yet care when they get here...but I DO hope they're gone by Lunchtime...
1:53PM--they were supposed to be here at 10AM, and they haven't arrived yet--I'm not happy...I could have spent the last two hours napping...
5PM--they finally got here a little after two and were gone by three...