an unplanned patience test

     
         SATURDAY 4/18/2020 5:54 PM--I know it has only been three days, but shouldn't I have my check yet? There was a guy in the grocery store who said he hasn't gotten his either...that helps a teeny bit to know that I'm not alone...but only a teeny bit...
SUNDAY 4/19/2020 6PM--having mac and cheese for dinner...still reading that 700 page bio of the Byrds...watched the extended cut of THAT THING YOU DO...most of the added scenes could have been left in IMO...but not all of them...
MONDAY 4/20/2020 9:05 AM--going out, later to mail something for the roomie...the big event for the day I guess...
11 PM--getting more antsy about (allegedly) recieving a stimulus check...
THURSDAY 4/23/2020 9:26 AM--supposedly the checks started going out about a week ago...I don't believe that...like the saying goes, "ya can't lose what ya never had"...
12:22 PM--somewhere around one o'clock I'm gonna get my clothes outta the dryer then go to bed...after that? who knows? Feeling especially friendless today...that's OK, I should be used to it...that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt, cause it does...
about eight hours until a virtual open mike starts w/o me...it hurts...not a single one of those motherfuckers has contacted me for ANY reason, much less to educate me on how to accomplish being a part of the event...
5:42 PM--still getting the silent treatment...and it still hurts a bit...
5:47 PM--just locked my FB account up--to everyone but me...we come into the World alone, we go out alone...why not be alone the rest of the time?
7:26 PM--guess what? I still don't have my stimulus check, not that I'm expecting one anymore...
7:38 PM--and now I find out that I seemingly don't have enough money in either account to pay my GEICO bill...
7:56--actually, I THINK there's about $300 in my checking account, but GEICO seems to be having trouble authorizing the payment...what the FUCK did I do to deserve all the shit that's getting dumped on me?
FRIDAY 4/24/2020 6:27 AM-I guess it was my idea, but Dianne  and I got up before dawn and went to the grocery store… I’m sitting out in the car waiting for her to finish, then we are going home at which time I will very likely go back to bed…