a bad day followed by a "normal" day

 

         THURSDAY 4/29/21 8:43AM--yesterday was a bad day for me...Dianne is blaming ME for the less than perfect lawn in front of her house...apparently a dog (HER'S?) has at some point in time yelllowed a small section of it...she went thru the roof...SHE needs to see a psychiatrist and /or a therapist--oh wait, she already does...I strongly suspect her "therapist" is coaching her with regards to how I should be treated...Need I mention, the therapist is a woman...
12:44PM--When I got back from the Doctor's office, Dianne apoligized but in the very next breath again blamed me the patch of grass being yellow...
6:48PM--still not such a great day, but I'm hoping it'll be better tomorrow...fifteen days, STILL no NEW new glasses...not happy about that...but I get it--if *I* sold glasses, I'd be pissed (and take my time) about giving a pair away...
8:50PM--tomorrow evening someone is coming to see how much work her cleaning crew has to do when/if they get the gig...I have a LOT of crap to get outta my bedroom and the living room--I dunno where I'm gonna put all the stuff...in the basement, I guess, but WHERE?
FRIDAY 4/30/21 8:37AM--I think my NEW new glasses are finally ready to be picked up...I'll probably go get 'em by myself, risky though that may be...and I might go get the guitar strings while I'm out and about...
11:33AM--got the strings, got plenty o' cash, and my NEW new glasses...as long as the earpieces behave, whatever else may happen I'll try to ignore...there's a two week "break-in period"...I imagine there will be some sliding down my nose when I perspire--that's not MED's fault...just gotta get used to them...and stop THINKING that they need adjustment...
         A new cleaning woman is coming to check out the house...my living room area is pretty dammed clean my bedroom too, but now I dunno where some stuff is exactly...
SATURDAY 5/1/21 9:05PM--the G-town flea market was a bust, but I got a new mask, for $5...it's got the M&M'S guys on it...we went to visit her folks, it was OK...I don't exactly know what's going on tomorrow...I think we're hanging out with Mike and Linda...oh boy...I think we're going to Frederick for some reason...
SUNDAY 5/2/21 10:30AM--yep, we're going to Frederick with Mike and Linda...already I can't wait to get back home...Before I go to Severna Park on Tuesday, I need to put oil in the car; it's a bit low...a new problem--the hood doesn't lock closed...I have no idea why, but I strongly suspect the guys across the street messed it up when they worked on the A/C...as if I don't have enough stuff stressing me out...

boy,that was close...

 

          

          MONDAY 4/26/21 12:37AM--I was messing around with Virtual DJ and I somehow lost what *I* felt was a VERY important feature...the ability to take certain parts OUT of a song, like vocals for example...Don't ask me how, but I got the feature back again...trying to chill out in a big way, but that's never easy for me...took two Melatonins and I'm going upstairs at 1AM...
10AM--just wasted 10 minutes or so on the phone trying to get my checking account boo-boo taken care of...the signal I was receiving was very broken up and ultimately broke off completely...I'll try again later, hopefully after the nap...I'm not surpried--it IS Monday...
6:51PM--It's quite possible that CapOne may actually be in the process of fixing the boo boo, in spite of the glitch-filled phone conversation...at least, that's kinda what the e-mail said anyway...
TUESDAY 4/27/21 5:35PM--feeling a bit better emotionally...not gonna jump for joy or do the Snoopy Dance, but otherwise, Life is...OK;

at last, the weekend is here

 

         FRIDAY 4/23/21 9:15PM--I'm hoping to stop by Michael's tomorrow, while Dianne is getting her haircut...and I have to stop at the Bank and get more cash for myself than usual...and not just because Dianne is planning a trip to Unique Thrift Shop on Saturday or Sunday...we'll see...
10:03PM--sneezed awhile back, it triggered a brief nosebleed...I got scared and took my BP...If I can trust the gizmo (the batteries are pretty old I think) it seems to be fine...Judging by my research, too much Melatonin is bad for one's blood pressure...
SATURDAY 4/24/21 1:15 PM-I just had lunch at the Burger King which is next to the Unique thrift shop... no books jumped out at me; I’m afraid to look in the back of the store where the guitars might be if they had any… I think Dianne is taking her time, enjoying herself shopping... I hope will be home by 2:30, if not a little sooner… I think it’s nicer sitting here at Burger King (outside) then it would be sitting in Unique... I think I’m closer to where the car is parked if I stay here… I’ve texted Dianne twice and gotten no response…may as well go back to the store...
5:12PM--I DID stop at Michael's and I DID get $200 outta my checking account...On Monday I hope to talk to a real person about the problem with it--the $5.00 spent at CVS.com that *I* had nothing to do with...I didn't exactly get a nap today--no big deal, I guess...but I don't expect to be up until Midnight, much less 1 or 2AM...
6:13PM--the idea of using Sharpie markers was more appealing than having/using them...not the first time I've screwed up, right?
SUNDAY 10:25AM--dunno what's going on today--yet...Dianne has some ideas, at least one of which specifically involves ME...it has to do with UHC paperwork...we're almost outta eggs and milk, so I'll likely be the one to go get the stuff...
6PM--Dianne and I did NOT work on that stuff that I can't stand to think about anyway...but I went to Giant and bought lotsa groceries, nearly $60 dollars worth...I've never done that before...

Does she know something about me that I don’t?

    

             WEDNESDAY 4/21/21 4:03PM-I can hear Dianne in her office talking to someone about MY will...I can’t see any reason NOT to leave everything to her…Should I leave anything to any of my so-called “friends”? I don’t think so...who would I leave stuff to? I suspect that they would eventually sell the stuff, rather than keep the stuff as a way to remember me...she might not know I overheard her side of the phone conversation...it’s time to get up anyway... I got a little bit of a nap, as much as I needed I guess...
         Not sure what I wanna have for dinner... I’ll probably have a mini pizza...maybe it SHOULD be enough of a meal, but it never FEELS like enough...I think we're going to Safeway at 5 o'clock or thereabouts...I can pick up something to have in addition to the pizza...Mozzerella sticks perhaps...
6:51PM--or...I can have the normal Wednesday meal...that's what I'm gonna do...
THURSDAY 4/22/21 11:30AM--someone (not me) used my debit card to buy $5.00 worth of stuff from CVS.com--I can't dispute the transaction until it is no longer "pending", which usually takes a couple days...which I suspect means Monday...I WILL go to Michaels to get an 8X10 frame...it turns out Dianne wants to go there too, so I guess we'll go after she gets off work...in addition to that, I scheduled an appointment with a gastroenterologist...the appointment is currently scheduled for 5/13, three weeks from today...
4:51PM--Dianne is working a teeny bit late, for some reason...after which we'll be going out--I think...*I* would like to stop at Wendy's to get Dinner and Dessert too...if we don't, I'll have the mini-pizza...and we still have some fudgsicles...
9:39PM--didn't go to Wendy's...got pizza from Mod Pizza...we each got mini pizzas...mine tasted good to me, but what do I know? did some shopping at Michaels...got a sketch pad and some frames...I wanna get some more markers of a certain kind, so maybe I'll be going back tomorrow...

it feels like going to the principal's office

 

               TUESDAY 4/20/21 8:40AM-- I will be going to the doctor's office in a little while...after I shave and shower I'm going to take an inventory of my meds...I can't wait to get back home and I haven't even left yet... I have no idea when I'll get back...I don't know if I have anything to do when I get back-- I hope not... if I go out later, I will probably need the air conditioner...
11:06AM-- I used the air conditioner on the way back from the doctors office.. So far, it's working...I got quite a shock when I got there--Gulnara (allegedly) resigned...to me that's depressing, and I was already depressed enough...even though I mentioned to Dr. Gendal that I was thinking about seeing a psychiatrist/therapist, HE didn't provide any assistance regarding that...
        The mask I just bought (on Sunday?) broke, hopefully just temporarily...I think Dianne can fix it--her hands are a bit smaller...otherwise, there's $7 dollars down the drain...
3:49PM-went to CVS, picked up the Wellbutrin and the lisinopril and melatonin… And I got a photo enlarged; I had an hour to kill… Still have about 20 minutes to kill as far as I can tell… That’s OK, I guess I have to go to Michael’s to get the frame... still shook up about Gulnara leaving...
5:05PM-- just got back from CVS... I was there for about 2 hours...printed a photo while I was there, coulda done a bunch, but they DO cost money...really really glad to have my meds back in stock...especially the Welbutrin...guess I'm having canned spaghetti for dinner; haven't had that in awhile...
6:36PM--Dianne is watching ONE DAY AT A TIME...it's about a visiting Russian basketball team (women's) staying with the Romanos...NOT what *I* wanna watch...
WEDNESDAY 4/21/21 Midnight--just finished watching ST III on Amazon Prime--on the TV, not the laptop...gonna try to go to sleep soon...three Melatonins should help...still bummed about Gulnara...of course, ya can't lose what ya never had...
11:40AM-- there are some guys doing lawn work next door...I don't think they're the regular lawn guys...as long as they leave Dianne's lawn completely alone...Just like the regular guys, English is not their first language...and to me, it looks like it's gonna rain soon...I think it will be raining by the time I finish my nap...

It’s a beginning at least

 

                       

                        SUNDAY 4/18/21 11:53AM-hanging out at the Olney   farmers market... on the way over here it occurred to me that I might have the desire to make music again; I was fantasizing about what, if anything I would do if I saw some acquaintances of mine making music here... as far as I can figure out no one is making music here today… Most times there is, but not always I guess…Ray contacted me and invited me to a gig in the Baltimore region… He admitted it was a bit of a drive, but he expressed the idea that it would be cool if I made it to the gig anyway... I decided to tell him that I was hoping to come to the Brian Boru gig in Severna Park on May the  11th... The plan is to bring my acoustic guitar, assuming I have rebuilt my calluses by then...
5:41PM-I think I’ve become my father… With the exception of course, of being a workaholic; when I’m out and about I am as friendly as a person can be, but when I’m alone or with my so-called friends I don’t feel quite as gregarious…I saw Gail taking one of her exercise walks… She asked me what was wrong – because I told her I didn’t feel all that good...I could be wrong but she seems genuinely concerned about me-at least a little...I'm  experimenting with speech to text- I'm not sure if it's going to work or not...it works when I use the phone...
                        MONDAY 4/19/21 12:29AM--I just paid a couple of bills, that's two less things to worry about today...I paid by check, *I* think that's the safest way to pay bills...Now I have to trust that the USPS won't screw anything up...Not sure how I would know if it did...in other News, Dianne attached a new toilet seat unit to the toilet in the upstairs bathroom--SHE found the first new unit (that *I* attached) to be less than perfect...Ultimately, we each did a bathroom...she also did some landscaping work, without my "assistance"...and I'm perfectly OK with that...I'm so glad to have paid those bills, I'm too excited/happy to be sleepy...
8:29AM--and in spite of the three Tylenols, BEFORE going to bed, I woke up at about 3:30 or so...I fell back to sleep at roughly 4:30 and slept until about 7:15, more or less...
       I was gonna pay cash (in some form) for the auto air conditioner work if it was $700 or less, but I think I'll charge it however much it turns out to be, using my Best Buy Visa card...we'll see...
11AM-well, it looks like the auto repair is going to be closer to $1200 than $700…I’m still planning on using the Best Buy credit card – if it all possible…and the car might not be ready by the end of the day which is OK I guess because I don’t need it until tomorrow morning when I go to the doctor’s office…Perhaps, if I have to, Dianne  will let me use her car for that...or maybe I should reschedule the appointment... OK we're trying again with the voice to text idea... It seems to be working OK, I think I increased the sensitivity of the microphone itself... Of course, I can speak more loudly if Dianne wasn't upstairs working, but she is... I think for the most part all I have to do is control the punctuation and correct any spelling errors... The lawn repair guys are back at work.... I have no idea how long they are going to be here...
            Of course once Dianne comes back home from work (upstairs) I won't be able to do this speech to text stuff, but that's OK... I think with all the work going on outside, I won't be getting much of an afternoon nap... and there's the anxiety over the car repairs... Of course that anxiety might keep me up tonight... And tomorrow night as well... And for the next few nights...
     For what it's worth, speech to text works on Facebook and Twitter... Let's see if it works with Gmail... As it turns out, it does...
Dianne is going to help with the car repair payment... It seems rather complicated to me but ultimately it will be taken care of... I think the way it works is: I pay the repair bill using my credit card, she gives me the money to pay the credit card bill and then I pay her back for that loan... I think that means that when the next Social Security check comes in, I will already have about $1000 in the bank to start with... I think this means that I will be starting off the month of May with approximately $1800 dollars in my account... I wonder what I should get myself for my birthday... Just kidding--I think...
4PM-- just waiting to hear from the car repair guy... I don't know if he's going to keep it one more day or not, but I hope he's done with it today...
4:28PM-- I guess there's still time to hear from the car repair guy, but I'm not optimistic... I'm not optimistic generally anyway, but I'm talking about car repair situation specifically... Right now I'm doing laundry... It really needed to be done... and so it is...BTW, I'm getting more and more used to speech to text... There are certain little nuances but I have to remember when I'm using it... the more I do it the easier it will get.. that's also true of guitar playing....
6:22PM--We bought a lawn sprinkler--MY recommendation...Dianne regrets taking my advice--perfect...She turned the house water on, *I* hooked up the sprinkler...it DOES work...so I have to move it occasionally; it's not that big a deal to ME...

MAYBE Dad would be (somewhat) proud

 

       SATURDAY 4/17/21 11AM--well, it took about two hours, but the new toilet seats are installed...Whether or not Dianne will be satisfied remains to be seen...the outdoor project is up next--after my nap, which, of course, is after I eat my Lunch...*I* think the least reward I deserve is a Jersey Mike's sub...the nap will be deserved as well, IMO...
4:12PM--I dunno why but the naps don't last as long as I want them to anymore...almost to the minute, they last about an hour...oh well...BTW, my arm still hurts where the needle went in...
6:07PM--feeling rather apathetic...I don't feel like doodling, let's put it that way...I guess I'm gonna lose it, whether it's finished or not--unless I save it...and I don't feel like doing that...just generally feeling weird...

an unusually good day

 

  THURSDAY 4/15 6:05PM--we went to MyEyeDr.--my new glasses should be ready in about ten days or so...and the subject of money/cost never came up...I think they agreed that the frames didn't really fit me properly...Much to my surprise, I lost the bet with Dianne--I was absolutely sure they were gonna say 'There's nothing we can do about your defective frames..." So *I* bought Wendy's Dinner for the two of us...
         The schedule keeps changing, but the Plan at this point  is to put the car in the shop on Monday morning...hopefully all they need to do is put freon into the unit...
          Tomorrow I get my 2nd COVID shot...a little concerned about finding the vaccination site...and I think I'm getting the book I bought from Amazon--the biography of John Entwistle...kinda excited about it...yep, just got it...can't wait to get into it...might start on it instead of watching Star Trek...
FRIDAY 4/16/21 9:19AM--getting nervous about the vaccination; I'll be glad to get back home...
5:12PM--the 2nd vaccine went quickly enough...I've heard that the side effects are a bit stronger than the 1st shot--guess I'll find out tomorrow...
9PM-for about the past 20 minutes or so I’ve been noodling on my acoustic guitar… It hurts, but they say the only way to get the calluses back is to just keep at it-slowly...as far as I know the LCB reunion is scheduled for May 22; The first chance I could go see Ray probably on my own, with (or without) a guitar, is May 7th, which will mark three weeks since I got the second vaccination-which I got today...I guess I'm gonna have to keep at it, EVERY day, at LEAST once a day...not sure I wanna go to Crofton (?) but who knows?

every day is Monday, I guess

 

                  SATURDAY 4/10/2021 9:14AM--the day started with me cleaning up a mess the cat made...I really REALLY don't like the cat...I wish I could have stopped Dianne from getting one, but I think we were apart at the time...We're supposed to go to Lenscrafters later...my mistake (MyEyeDr.)cost me $275 dollars...I'm considering just keeping these glasses and trying to just get used to them NOT fitting properly...a fairly expensive fuck-up for sure...hopefully, I learned my lesson...we'll see...
SUNDAY 4/11/2021 11:35AM--gonna go to Lenscrafters w/Dianne, but probably won't investigate getting myself new(er) glasses...I guess I'll learn to live with my f**kup...
5:03PM-It’s been suggested that I go back to where I got the glasses from and have them take care of it… That’s what I was afraid of…Dianne has offered to go with me...
TUESDAY 4/13/21 10:42AM--I think I've finally gotten the new checks problem solved--but that's what I thought last week...the money will come out of my Checking Account...there's still about $1600 dollars in it...I really REALLY don't wanna take any more money out of it, but that seems inevitable...I'm hoping to get the car's air conditioner checked this week...

It’s Friday? Are you sure?

       

          FRIDAY 4/9/21 9:36AM-I’m at the library, getting ready to donate some books… I realize I’m 20 minutes early, but still, someone should be here, shouldn’t they? There’s nobody here but me...
10:20AM--Donated some books...the basement is still a big mess; getting rid of the books didn't change that...
             It seemed to take a long time, but Dianne was finally  able to sign me up for my second vaccination appointment… I belatedly realized that the whole point of most modern technology is to be able to spy on us... of course, I strongly resent that, but there’s nothing I can do about it… it feels like it’s going to be a really long LONG day…surely I’ll be getting my laptop back today – I’m considering prayer…
4:55PM--I got the laptop back but naturally, I can't change my password because I can't remember the password I wanna change...if The Geek Squad wants to hack in to my laptop, let 'em...I am VERY surprised they didn't try to sell me a new one...they did say "maybe next year", and I should be able to get what I want/need for about $500 bucks...
           And I might be able to get my car's air conditioner fixed for about $300 bucks...gonna drop it off across the street next week...
 11:41PM--I just found out that Dianne doesn't really like me having the green table to hold my laptop...so I'm gonna try using my actual lap to support it...I guess I can get used to it--although there's not much room on the arm of the chair for the mouse...maybe I can use the cushion itself...that's not so great either...maybe I'll get used to it...
I listened to a youTube video of that Beach Boy tribute band I was in briefly...I made the right decision by leaving...they're still not as good as they could be...maybe they don't hear the mistakes, or maybe they don't care...

What’s going to happen next?

 

           WEDNESDAY 4/7/21-well, I got the stimulus check… It’s kind of weird that the more money I have the less I want to spend it... but as soon as I can get to my Best Buy account (on the laptop) I will pay off the money that I spent yesterday to get  the new Protection Plan...
I now have almost $25 in my Amazon account...Dunno what, if anything, I'm gonna buy with it...
11:41PM-well tomorrow I’ve got a bunch of phone calls to make… Dianne has threatened to kick me out if I don’t get off my butt and do stuff… frankly I think she’s jealous that I’m retired and she’s not...on the other hand, she makes a whole lot more money than I’ve ever made it in any job combined...
THURSDAY- so the roomie has threatened  me with eviction if I don’t get psychiatric care... you would think that someone who had been hospitalized for that purpose would be a little more understanding and compassionate, but no… I don’t know when, but I’m going to reward myself for what I’ve had to go through this morning… I can’t effin’ wait to get my laptop back…I DID accomplish something today-I got the check printing company the information that they required in order to finish the job of printing my checks...

MAYBE I took care of it

 

       MONDAY 4/5/21 11:50PM--I just paid the bill from Chesepeake Urology...I think, I hope, I might even pray that the bill paying takes care of it, permanently...
        I told Dianne that I was gonna clean the upstairs bathroom tomorrow morning...I have no idea what I've gotten myself into...I'm pretty sure I'll NEED a nap when I'm finished...but I want to go to Best Buy, to put the laptop in the Shop...

6:25PM The laptop is in the shop and I won't have it back for about 4 days...Hopefully it will perform a lot better than it has been lately...Gotta relearn how to use the tablet again... For better or worse, I used my Best Buy credit card for the first time...