let the healing begin

    THURSDAY 8/1/19 12:08 PM--Dianne gave me something for my sore leg, but I didn't think it was working so I got some kinda lotion...it MIGHT be working...I'm NOT looking forward to going out tonight...I don't wanna have the meatloaf for Dinner--maybe I'll save it for tomorrow night...I think Dianne and I are going to see the Crosby biopic on Saturday night...that's something to look forward to...
      FRIDAY 12:22AM--I didn't really enjoy myself tonight at the OTWC open mic all that much, but I tried not to be a big downer...I shouldn't go out tonight knowing that I might be going with Dianne to the Germantown flea market early Saturday morning...I'm not quite yet but I'm sure I will be excited to see the Crosby  movie...we're supposed to go on Saturday night, but maybe Sunday afternoon would be better...
  10:47AM--nope, we're sticking with Saturday...Dianne says she's really busy on Sunday...I don't think *I* am, at least not yet...I think she's really gonna need a nap before Dinner after which we're supposed to go to the movie...
4:04 PM--still feeling down...I didn't have the conversation with Barry about the Combustibles--HE said *I* shoulda hung out longer...it was 11:30 when I left the OTWC, that felt late to me...and HE coulda started the conversation if he cared enough about my feelings...
      I guess I'll just have to keep my head down and my Mouth shut...I can't/don't/won't believe that our ex-Bass player Bruce was happy being in the Combustibles...after all, he did leave the band...
9:32PM--I guess it's pointless to try to understand why I seem to be somewhat unpopular...maybe I'm not emotionally available enough, that is,  too introverted or withdrawn or something...or maybe I come off as insincere...I don't know who to ask and frankly, I'm afraid to...I don't even think I should talk to Dianne about all this...I'm pretty sure I won't like what she has to say...
         Bedtime may be about an hour or so away...If I go with Dianne to the G-town flea market I have to be ready by 7AM, more or less...of course if I go to bed before 11 (or earlier) I'll likely be up by 6 o'clock if not sooner...in which case I might be able to make a grocery run to Safeway...
SATURDAY 8/3/19 11AM--ended up going to Giant instead at about 8:30...tried to get a cat nap, but failed...put in some kb practice...but I'm just too tired...wanna be back in bed before 1PM...
2:30PM--not napping yet, but should be any minute now...
5:50PM--I think I got a nap...I was supposed to go to the movies tonight but I don't think it's gonna happen...Dianne has spent most of the day at Home Depot (or Lowe's) so she's not gonna wanna go out tonight...I suppose I could go alone, but I would rather go earlier than a 8:20 showing...maybe tomorrow, or Monday...Dianne's going to brunch with her folks, but I dunno if *I* am gonna go...not 100% sure she wants me to go...