like always

      FRIDAY 4/26/19 7:11AM--this should be a day of recovery...I'm gonna be kinda busy later; I'm going out tonight to see/hear another band and I've got another gig of my own tomorrow night...NOT looking forward to that all that much...but I can always use the money, however much it will be...gonna try real hard tomorrow night to "act enthusiastic" [so I can] be enthusiastic"...but right NOW, I'm just kinda wiped out...
11:40AM--it wasn't my idea, but I've been up since 6:30, I should be ready for a nap by 1PM if not a bit sooner...
5:31PM--didn't get a nap, partially because I took the Vyvance (and all my other meds) at almost 10:30 and there was a thunderstorm moving thru the area...
SUNDAY 4/28/19 8:22AM--gonna spend the day recovering from a rather busy three days...going to Brunch with the ex in-laws later...don't really feel like it, but I don't feel like doing much of anything...a nice hunk of money in my pocket, from the two gigs I've done this past week...
7PM--I'm currently under the influence of about 5 Xanax and 1 Lisinopril and 1 Atenolol...it feels like being a bit drunk...I fuckin' hate being clumsy--I broke a big glass bowl that belonged to the roomie...

not my first choice

        SATURDAY 4/20/19 5:35PM--there's no place that I'm dying to go to tonight...I don't wanna go to the OTWC, but that's likely where I'll end up...I don't wanna hang around the house, to some degree because Dianne has somewhere to go tonight...It's financially a good idea to have Dinner here at home...what, I dunno...
8:47PM- I am here at the OTWC, sitting by myself, which is the way I want it...dunno if I’m gonna feel better or worse when I leave...
9:45PM-played BASS behind Tom and Lauren (one song) and it took until the song was almost over for me to get warmed up...wasn’t expecting a FIVE string Bass...
10:26PM-sang behind Jeff Jones and Kennedy...we were damn good...yes I’m fairly glad I came...and I hope I’m not done...but I suspect I am...
SUNDAY 4/21/19 11:25AM- I’m at the Unique thrift shop... I bought a button-down shirt and a pair of shorts and two CDs… No polo shirts, but it’s not like I didn’t try;  I think I’m finished shopping, but Dianne is just getting started…by the time we get to IHOP it will be quite crowded...
12:34PM--just found out, I already have ON THE BEACH, I didn't need to buy the CD...so I gambled and lost...that's $2.00 I might need later...
6:08PM--wanted to re-schedule my haircutting appointment with Kathy, and so I did...
9:23PM--tried to design/print the ACME set list for Saturday that wasn't a spreadsheet...*I* couldn't do it...but I did find out there's an ACME rehearsal on Wednesday @ 7...
TUESDAY 4/23/19 8:52AM--Dianne's working from home today...I dunno why, but that inhibits me in some way...I don't think Muzzy realizes she's here...
1:48PM--Muzzy knows, I think...why she's not hanging out with Dianne is a mystery to me...in a few minutes, I'm going upstairs to get a wink or two; hopefully about two hours worth, but I doubt that the nap will last that long...
5PM- Dianne is talking to Verizon about the TV… I’m wondering if this would go smoother if I was involved...VERY frustrating..
7:15PM--and yet I'm glad I wasn't involved, although it did cost me the price of Dinner for two at iHOP...

when will I ever learn?

          SATURDAY 4/13/19 10:34PM-- every single time Dianne and I have gone out to Dinner and see/hear a live band, we've fought about something...tonight was no exception...I hope I remember this evening so there won't be a next time...
                      Lotsa people I know were at the OTWC this evening...As I was leaving, Jessica hugged me...I nervously hugged her back...I didn't want Dianne to see any of that...and I told Jessica "I want to kiss you, but I won't..."  I suspect she was relieved...I paid for Dinner and Dessert for two with the credit card...again, I didn't wanna, but I felt as though I had no choice...
   SUNDAY 4/14/19 10:44PM-- I seem to be getting more depressed...a guitar of mine that I was hoping to start using again needs a fair amount of work...not sure I wanna spend that much money for a guitar that I wouldn't be using all that much...typical...
MONDAY 4/15/19 1:33PM--After several months (years?) I found out one can EQ their iPhone when listening to Music...of course my ears ring so loudly that I might not hear the difference...
TUESDAY 4/16/19 3:49PM--I'm not sure how or why, but I suddenly got the urge to work in the Recording Lab...so for about an hour, I did...eventually baby steps will get you where you wanna go...I'm also doing Laundry...the cleaning chicks are coming tomorrow instead of Thursday; Maria says they'll be here around 10AM...we'll see...if there's anything else going on, I can't remember what it is...

what day is it?

            THURSDAY 4/11/19 7:27AM--having a gig in the middle of the week really messes with my inner calendar...but I'm glad I have today as a buffer between the gig and the weekend...Dianne tells me she doesn't WANT me to go with her to the Sugarloaf  craft festival, and that's OK by me...I think she's going on Friday, but I could be wrong about that ...
11PM--trying to pinch my pennies until they squeal...the cancellation of the Combustibles' gig has had a negative effect on my finances...oh well...
         FRIDAY 4/12/19 7:15AM--going to the grocery store later...still planning on going out tonight, rain or no rain...I don't like Hershey's all that much, but that's where Poverty Ridge is playing tonight...
12:36PM--Dianne has changed her Mind, so I will be going to Sugarloaf, after her WW meeting...to some degree, that means I should be in bed way before the hour I went to bed last night...what kept me up so late? Art, what you could call mere "doodling"...*I* don't call it that, frankly; I think it's a level above that, although I don't know what to call it...
           I'm not going out tonight...if for no other reason, to save the money I would spend on a drink and the tip...I'm hoping to go out tomorrow night, even though I don't really need to...

enjoying my apathy, but only a little

                        MONDAY4/8/19 5:12PM--listening to my first ever audiobook, WILD TALES, the autobiography of Graham Nash...I read it a couple of years ago, more or less...Dunno how long the tablet will hold a charge...BTW, I borrowed the audio book, I didn't buy it...and I'm liable to return it before I finish it--or not...
          TUESDAY 4/9/19 7:30AM--I believe I have an appointment with Dr. Borelli at about 11AM...I finally have something to talk about...In TECH NEWS, on my own, I discovered the method for organizing one's Bookmarks...that's a big deal to ME...
11:46AM--Dr. Borelli had fallen and hurt her arm, so the appointment was cancelled...the office DID call, but didn't leave a message...so I made that part of the trip for nothing...before the Dr.'s appointment, I went to Litz and got the mic stand and clip...went to the grocery store and got cheese and motor oil--my car needs some...then I stopped off at Petsmart to get the pre-ordered dog food...they still (allegedly) have no openings for cashiers...I was told the Germantown store might have them though...and no, Jen wasn't there yet--she was probably in school at the time...
WEDNESDAY 4/10/19 7:41AM--I feel like I've got a lot to do before I leave for the gig I have later...in fact, I feel like I've done a fair amount already...gonna make a "to do" list on my phone...
11AM--Barry has been forced to cancel Saturday's gig...other than financially, I'm relieved...but, for a couple of reasons, I might have to have sandwiches for Dinner; for one thing, that will save me a few bucks...and it changes the logistics quite a bit, which is a good thing, I think...I just hope two sandwiches are enuff...
12:53PM--one of the things I'm really bummed about is the inability to easily "enjoy" myself...and looking at porn on the Internet does nothing for me...except make me depressed...that's a bummer too...oh well...

it's Friday! so what?

             FRIDAY 4/5/19 7:48AM--so far it's been a rainy day and that's the way it might be all day...there's nothing on my 'to do' list other than going to the grocery store and getting milk...that shouldn't take all day, right? Not planning on going out tonight...but I AM starting to get cabin fever...don't yet know if I'm going out tomorrow night, but I doubt it...
                There might be quite a sale at Unique on Saturday...and there's the Germantown Flea Market as well...In addition, Dianne is going to a jewelry store with a "friend"...the trip to Unique might be near Dinnertime, if not later...I'm not exactly happy about THAT...
11AM--I guess I'm as dumb as a Chump supporter...I seem to be unable to navigate the Food Stamps website...so on Monday I'll possibly go to Germantown...Obviously the state wants to make it difficult to get food stamps...so I'll try again on Monday...so now I'm depressed and frustrated...
6:04PM--yet again, a hasty decision has gotten me in trouble...I bought a book on Amazon that I kinda sorta in a way wanted, then I saw a book that I genuinely wanted...so I returned (hopefully for a refund) the Grateful Dead book and purchased "ythe definitive biography" of CSNY...I should have the refund in a couple of days...
SATURDAY 11:33AM--I am enjoying the CSNY bio; it's hard (for me anyway) to put it down...I think Dianne and I are going to Unique later...
1:22PM--about an hour and a half ago, Barry sent out an e-mail announcing the cancellation of tomorrow's practice...best news I've gotten today, so far..
4:45PM- so I went to Unique to buy some button down shirts, and I couldn’t find any that I liked, that didn't have to be ironed... so I started looking, reluctantly, for polo shirts... but I only found two of those that I liked…Dianne found three, and although I don't like 60/40 polyester/cotton blends, I bought one or two...
SUNDAY 4/7/19 5:10PM--other than reading, the most fun I've had today was organizing my closet...took about five minutes...

how exciting! (not much)

       MONDAY 4/1/19 9:22AM--doing Laundry, yahoo...the ACME Band is practicing tomorrow, that's something to look forward to, right? and the Combustibles are supposed to rehearse next Sunday...today is April Fool's Day--and I can't wait til it's over...
TUESDAY 4/2/19 5:13PM--ACME practice tonight...I have no idea what my band mates think of me...maybe that shouldn't stop me from functioning in the Band...and it doesn't stop me, but it makes me anxious...
10:42PM--and that anxiety hasn't diminished...if anything, it has increased...I feel as though other than Dianne, and (maybe) Stoney, I don't have any friends...if I do, I dunno who they are...to change the subject, after a couple of trips to Mike's house I noticed the ONE WAY sign pointing in the direction of one of the streets to it...so I was traveling the wrong way when I would leave...I figured out what I thought was the legal way to get out of his neighborhood and tried it once...But after talking with Mike, it was decided that apparently vandals had tampered with the sign...getting that taken care of was the best thing to happen tonight and it had nothing to do with band practice or Music...
WEDNESDAY 4/3/19 7:10AM--washing the rags...later, probably right after Lunch, I hope to make a trip to the Recycle facility...another exciting day, right?
6:21PM--I did go to the Recycle Center...Dianne figured that out right away and gave me some static for doing that, but I don't care...Maria says they're coming around Noon tomorrow, so I'll probably go out somewhere for Lunch...it's hard to think about tomorrow's Lunch when I just got up from the dinner table...in fact, I may have had too much spaghetti and meatballs...I have a tummy ache...
THURSDAY 4/4/19 9:06AM--it does make a difference knowing approximately when the girls are coming to clean...
3:42PM--they arrived slightly past the time they said they were coming...I didn't wait for them, I went to Subway for Lunch...then I went to the Bank and CVS...now, I can't wait until bedtime...for me, there's nothing going on tonight--unless I'm forgetting something...and because Dianne and I are getting up before Dawn on Saturday, I shouldn't go out on Friday night...not that I want to (yet) anyway...
10:46PM--on the spur of the moment I bought a Kindle book from Amazon...I wasn't in a Grateful Dead mood but they are the subject of the book I bought--for about $10 dollars...I don't regret buying it, but I'm not hungry to read it either...at least it's not a borrowed book...I think I read it a long time ago, but I plan to keep it anyway--probably...