when will I ever learn?

          SATURDAY 4/13/19 10:34PM-- every single time Dianne and I have gone out to Dinner and see/hear a live band, we've fought about something...tonight was no exception...I hope I remember this evening so there won't be a next time...
                      Lotsa people I know were at the OTWC this evening...As I was leaving, Jessica hugged me...I nervously hugged her back...I didn't want Dianne to see any of that...and I told Jessica "I want to kiss you, but I won't..."  I suspect she was relieved...I paid for Dinner and Dessert for two with the credit card...again, I didn't wanna, but I felt as though I had no choice...
   SUNDAY 4/14/19 10:44PM-- I seem to be getting more depressed...a guitar of mine that I was hoping to start using again needs a fair amount of work...not sure I wanna spend that much money for a guitar that I wouldn't be using all that much...typical...
MONDAY 4/15/19 1:33PM--After several months (years?) I found out one can EQ their iPhone when listening to Music...of course my ears ring so loudly that I might not hear the difference...
TUESDAY 4/16/19 3:49PM--I'm not sure how or why, but I suddenly got the urge to work in the Recording Lab...so for about an hour, I did...eventually baby steps will get you where you wanna go...I'm also doing Laundry...the cleaning chicks are coming tomorrow instead of Thursday; Maria says they'll be here around 10AM...we'll see...if there's anything else going on, I can't remember what it is...