boy, did *I* f**k up big time

                         FRIDAY 7/20/18 2:10AM--I met a girl singer at the OTWC...I thought (and still think) she was kinda cute...but there is NO WAY I would EVER consider trying to have a romantic relationship with her--I'm not THAT crazy or without scruples...she's only 26...unfortunately I confided my feelings to a friend...super unfortunately, her companion for the evening was also in the bathroom...
                             2:35--I can't believe he hasn't yet told her what I said...She and I are still (I think) FB friends...that may not be true by morning...the man I believe to be her Dad said her name was Cara Volkman--SHE said no, her name is Svetlanna Vladmirovna...after some research I'm now sure she has (at least) TWO FB profiles...but I dunno why...so her behavior is no less (but no more) weird IMO than the feeling I had (still have?) for her...I don't feel nearly as embarrassed or ashamed now as I did when I first came home..the purpose of multiple FB profiles escapes me...maybe the Russian name is the one she gives to the people from whom she wants to keep her distance...
       I think she lost her Mother recently; that would surely have some kind of effect on a person, right? She's come up with a few songs she would like to do, so apparently, she's still talking to me...which, whether I should be or not, makes me feel good...and yet, she's starting to make me a bit nervous...she might be quite a bit more "eccentric" than I'm comfortable with...