maybe it's some kinda omen (or who needs that)

 

           SUNDAY 1/31/21 5:17PM--a microscopic screw fell outta my glasses...it's as good as GONE as far as I'm concerned...the roomie says go to MED so they can fix the problem...I don't think I'll be able to get there until (maybe) Tuesday...and I'd rather go there to get the NEW glasses...
  9:40PM--trying to hang in there until about Midnight...we'll see...
MONDAY 2/1/21 8AM--I left TWO Fakebook Groups last night (around 2AM) because I was being treated disrespectfully, and who needs THAT, from people I don't even know...the plan now is to VIEW Fakebook but NOT contribute to the chaos...pop in now and then to see what's happening then get out...I guess my days as a meme creator are over, unless I put 'em on Twitter...
     The misnamed "Phriendly Phish Phans" was rude IMO...in the Star Trek group, some Chumpster made anti-Biden comments on one of my posts--I THOUGHT there were rules about leaving Politics OUT of any discussions...apparently I was wrong about that...oh well...
11:31PM--it's only been ONE DAY of not posting or even commenting of Fakebook, but it sure seems longer...I'm hoping to get out to the grocery store tomorrow--Dianne is (as of now) letting me use her car...I'm intensely grateful...
TUESDAY 2/2/21  6:42PM--I dug Dianne's car out earlier today--and lived to tell about it...the Plan is to go to Giant Food tomorrow...and I plan to start my car...assuming that it will...I'm in no hurry to dig IT out...
11:33PM--I REALLY want my new glasses; haven't heard a thing from MyEyeDr.and it's been about 10 days...

all by itself

 

           FRIDAY 1/29/21 10:42 AM--I think my credit card problem went away sometime in the wee hours of Friday morning...very grateful for that...I officially activated it this morning, around eight o'clock...It seems that my BestBuy Visa card was never activated, so I did that one as well...I'm not 100% sure but I THINK I can use it like any kind of Visa card--I don't think the only place I can use it is BestBuy...not in a hurry to use either one...
           I've got $100 bucks to last until Wednesday morning--five days...Well, not anymore… I bought nearly $50 worth of groceries…It’s a pretty good Friday so far...
8:38PM--Dianne gave me a Planner I intend to use in addition to whatever apps I use  on my phone...I've just gotta work on my handwriting...it's quite heavy-handed, I wanna work on that...I wanna get a pen with a smaller point, 05 instead of the 07 I have now...preferably in BLUE...
          I just registered to be able to get "in line" to get my vaccination...I will be notified when an opening comes up...
SATURDAY 1/30/21 12:43PM--after months of wondering why I joined LinkedIn in the first place, I was able to delete the account...any victory over Technology should be celebrated...
4:56PM--took some effort, but I finally got the 05 pen(s) in BLUE...and I got clips to hold my bedroom curtains in place--a VERY big deal to me...
SUNDAY 1/31/21 11:33AM--it's snowing...the youngest of our next door neighbors (the left side, facing the street) shoveled our sidewalk...she wouldn't take money for it...at my age, I'm thankful that *I* don't have to do it...I may be super depressed, but I don't wanna die...It's possible shoveling would cause me to have a heart attack...I don't wanna do that...and the roomie shouldn't do any shoveling either...

actually, something HAS changed

 

      FRIDAY 1/22/21 4:04PM--Donald Chump is no longer POTUS...but Joe Biden is, that's the guy *I* voted for...after a lot of procrastination, I scheduled an appointment with a Urologist--for February 11th...I think I have to re-schedule my appointment with Dr. Gendal's office, because we won't have test results to talk about at that time...
             So now I think I've got all weekend to NOT worry about stuff...that feels good...I hope I don't jinx it, but I think I'm 90% off of Fakebook...we'll see...
6:50PM--I did something nice for a stranger today...it still feels good...I'm not gonna elaborate...I believe in the idea that announcing that you've done something unselfish and nice diminishes its' impact...I didn't do it for the recognition of doing it...IF "Big Brother" really is EVERYWHERE, then he already knows about it...
SATURDAY 1/23/21 6:02PM--I finally got my eyes checked at MyEyeDoctor...I then picked out and ordered new glasses...I thank the Universe that I had the money to pay for them...I think I'll have them in a week to ten days...But I left my Lena hat at the store...I'll check with them tomorrow...Dianne ordered some masks...it appears to ME that the box of masks was stolen...at any rate, we don't have the masks...kinda sucks IMO...we're still using cloth masks, which is better than none at all...
TUESDAY 1/26/21 9:20PM--I was wondering what was going on with my new CapOne Credit Card...I found an e-mail that I hadn't noticed before, stating that the card could be here on Thursday...the socks I ordered last week (or thereabouts) arrived today...I don't think that I deliberately ordered BLACK socks, but that's what I got...I'm keeping them...
THURSDAY 1/28/21 11PM--I think I'm STILL having a problem with my NEWcredit card, which is weird because IT JUST CAME IN THE MAIL TODAY!!! Guess I gotta CALL CapOne again...not at all looking forward to that...

nothing has changed

 

           SUNDAY 1/17/21 11:24PM--I don't feel like doing much of anything, not even this...I doodle when I feel like it, check Fakebook when I feel like it...I haven't been to the grocery store since Friday (?) and I don't plan on going tomorrow either...Tomorrow is a Holiday of sorts...Dianne is off, I think...
     WEDNESDAY 1/20/21 1:15PM--America has a new President--I hope HE survives...It's likely that all those loudmouth Chumpsters were just mouthing off...all that hot air had to go somewhere, right?
 5:48PM--I think I'm having pizza TOMORROW night, but I'm having fettucine alfredo tonight...
7:12PM--apparently someone or something used my CapOne credit card...I was gonna wait until tomorrow to solve the problem but then it started to gnaw at me...so I called, and (I think) took care of it...the amount of money we're talking about is/was just about $100...I'll try to forget about it; my new credit card could be here in about a week...

depressed AND angry

 

          SATURDAY 1/9/21 11:17AM--the current political/social climate in this country has (I think) made my depression worse...it's also got me seething with anger, and that's unhealthy for a man my age, in the shape I'm in...
       The big event of the day so far is the planned trip to CVS, with the roomie...we should be leaving shortly, after I eat Lunch...
2:13PM--we went to CVS, Dianne went on to Kohl's...I hope to be napping soon...
4:49PM--the nap started late...I guess dinner (whatever it's gonna be) will be a bit late as well--the roomie is asleep, snoring a bit...I'm glad I've got one more day before the MRI...
MONDAY 1/11/21 10PM--Had the MRI...it was not at all enjoyable, not even a little...but I survived it, and the five and a half (or so) hours without food or drink...
TUESDAY 1/12/21 4PM--made an appointment to see my hemotologist--tomorrow at 11AM...I think HE reports back to Dr. Gendal's office...
7:32PM--For (hopefully) the last time I posted something on Fakebook...If I "pushed the right buttons" nobody will be able to post on my page...Like I've done before, I'll just pop in every now and then...well, probably a bit more often than that...but I've had it with phony friendships...
           I've been thinking about it for quite sometime...and I realized the Truth--the best (and IMO only) friend I have is Dianne...and I think about all the time I wasted being a Musician in Montgomery County, thinking I had friends here...they say it's never too late to get an education...
                 In fact, and I don't think I'm wrong, I've pretty much wasted my whole Life...NONE of my dreams came true, not that there were tjat many...I accept MY share of the blame for that, but only my share...For instance, even now I fantasize about doing an online "radio" show...but I wake up quickly and face reality...and I kinda hate reality...
MIDNIGHT--At least when it comes to being a Musician, apparently I wasn't as good as I thought I was--which was pretty good, not the "best" but not the worst...as for the people that DID compliment me, now their compliments feel like total bullshit...
            And another thing, *I* never hear from anybody...I get tired of being the guy who reaches out to THEM...I have heard from Lou a couple of times, but that's all...Of course, Amanda probably keeps him busy...and I've heard from SLR a couple of times, but no more than that...

it had to happen eventually

 

         WEDNESDAY 1/6/2021 9:18PM--as much as I WANT to get away from Flakebook, I haven't yet...just a few minutes ago, I saw a photo of Angela with a guy who is apparently her new boyfriend...I know it shouldn't but it hurts...I didn't unfriend her (as if she cares one way or the other) but I'm no longer "following" her--as if she cared about THAT either...now all I'll ever have is fantasies...which, if I'm being honest, is all I would ever have anyway...
           I made an appointment to get an MRI done on Monday the 11th...I can't eat for four hours before the procedure...there goes Lunch...I can't eat anything after 10:15AM--that means I'll be having Lunch at around 9:30 or so...and the procedure could take as long as 90 minutes...I really REALLY REALLY hope it doesn't take that long...there goes Lunch at a normal time, and there goes the after Lunch nap...
      I have about $1000 in the Bank...I'm gonna try to leave it alone as much as I can...If/when I get new glasses, I plan to charge them...my CapOne charge card is clean...I did order a book about Phish from Amazon, but I DIDN'T charge it...and I'm getting a little notebook to act as a scheduler and whatever else I wanna write, in addition to whatever might be in my phone...didn't charge THAT either...
9:51PM--Angela just "liked" a meme I put on Flakebook...feels like someone poured a little bit of salt into my wound--however small that wound might be...she put a photo of them together a few days ago, but I just didn't put 2+2 together--dammit...

I survived

   

           SATURDAY 1/2/2021 9PM--I made it thru the visit with Mike and Linda...but I'm really REALLY outta shape as a guitarist...other than a decent Dinner, I'm a bit sorry we went...but it's done...
10:02PM--I was more embarrassed than angry while I was playing...*I* don't think that Mike has gotten that much better on the violin, but it's his teacher's opinion that matters the most...
        I think the roomie and I are going grocery shopping tomorrow, so I need to take inventory and then make a list...
SUNDAY 1/3/21 1PM--went shopping, spent about $36 bucks...I shouldn't have to go for two (maybe) three days...
MONDAY 1/4/2021 11:11AM--I got the $600 bucks!!! and although I wanted to wait a day, I went ahead and paid off the credit card...The next thing I hope to work on is my eyesight...gotta make an appointment with the eye doctor...hopefully tomorrow I'll get that done...
TUESDAY 1/5/2021 4:05PM--I went to the Bank this morning to find out why they hadn't (as far as I knew) taken the $150 I paid Dianne on the 31st of December...I checked one more time while talking to teller and sure enuff they had taken it...Murphey's Law of Banking I guess...my a phone call or two, did NOT get in touch w/the Eye Doctor...still I feel like I got things done...