no Man's Land--not my idea

      SATURDAY 5/30/2020 4:03PM--went to MyEyeDR. and accomplished NOTHING...they say I'm no longer with Amerigroup and Humana only covers MediCARE Part D--prescription drugs...I dunno if they're on the level or know what they're doing or what...very VERY VERY  frustrating...

  SUNDAY 5/31/2020 7:30AM--guess I'm gonna have eye trouble for the foreseeable future--that sucks, a LOT...gonna run outta milk this morning, I don't think I need anything else...

6:19PM--tomorrow I'm gonna try to find out IF I have insurance,  WHAT KIND of insurance, WHO do I have it with, WHAT is covered, what is NOT covered...not at all looking forward to what I'm sure will be a very stressful time consuming Project...

MONDAY 6/1/2020 11:37AM--not surprisingly, I'm probably gonna postpone the Insurance Project until tomorrow...

4:20PM--having hot dogs for Dinner...my accomplishments for today are as follows: _________________ ; and I don't expect to do anything significant this afternoon or evening...

WEDNESDAY 6/3/2020 9:40AM--I had a major meltdown at  Petsmart yesterday...probably the most embarrassing thing to happen to me in quite some time...I don't wanna talk about it...except that it's made me feel worse than I felt before, and that was pretty bad...

I think I DO know exactally how Lindburgh felt

    

          FRIDAY 5/29/2020 9AM--I'm feeling pretty much abandoned by my so-called friends...oh well, such is Life, right? like I've been saying for years, we come in alone, we go out alone, so what if we spend all our time in the middle alone?

        My Life under quarantine is not all that different from my "normal" Life... nobody has contacted me about anything...Sue asks about me when Dianne talks to her...

11:36AM--took a mid-morning nap, that felt good...anytime I'm asleep feels better than being awake...

4:09PM--took a nap after Lunch, slept some...

SATURDAY 5/30/2020 8:35 AM--tried to take the AARP Free Hearing Test...the phone number they provided got me nowhere--FOUR times...and I belive I need to get my eyes tested asap...

11:35AM--I didn't necessarily wanna go get my eyes checked today but that's what I'll be doing later...I DID go to Safeway for a couple of things...spent my Budget allotment for the day but I don't think I'll be spending anymore...at least until I get to the eye doctor's...

That was close

   
     THURSDAY 5/28/2020 9:32AM-I got pulled over this morning for not wearing a seatbelt…So grateful that all I got was a warning…What a way to start the day...
10:53AM--I guess I should be doing laundry, but I don't feel like it...my room IS a mess...the first floor looks pretty good, thanks to Dianne...

3:47PM--having a mini pizza for dinner, I'll finish the lemon chicken off tomorrow...went to McDonald's and got what they call a milk shake--choclate AND sugar, yum...went to Safeway for a bag of ice, nothing more...Amazon Prime said they were gonna take money from me to maintain my membership--they took it from my credit card account; maybe that's a good thing...
8:19PM-I forgot to eat dinner!

it's always gonna be something

               
               FRIDAY 5/22/2020 5:05PM--I dunno how it happened, but the windshield washer of my car has stopped working...that kinda sucks if ya ask me...I suppose it could be a lot worse...
SATURDAY 5/23/2020 6:20PM--I was awake last night from about 2AM until 4AM at which point I took TWO (?) Melatonin...The alarm woke me up at 7:25 so that me and the roomie could go to the grocery store...I came home took a short nap before Lunch and ANOTHER one after Lunch...Naturally, I feel more awake NOW than I have all day long...
SUNDAY 5/24/2020 8:21AM--I have no plans of any kind for today...I WANT to do some labwork, but that doesn't mean I will...
7PM--I'm finally using my Amazon Prime account for something other than free shipping...I'm reading a free book, a bio of David Cassidy...apparently I could also be watching stuff on my laptop and/or tablet...reading makes me sleepy, so for a little while I'll stop--maybe...
TUESDAY 5/26/2020 4:45PM--It's been a pretty sucky day in my opinion...tomorrow will be better...Dianne and I plan on visiting Seneca Creek State Park, which very close by...which sounds like more fun than we had this morning--fighting...
WEDNESDAY 5/27/202012:32PM- So we went to Seneca Creek State Park and sat at the edge of Clopper Lake...well Dianne went for a short walk, *I* sat on a bench...Now I’m sitting outside on a bench in front of Weis market eating my lunch, which I got from Subway...

1:52PM--Blogger.com has made a few changes...probably gonna take some getting used to...I was not consulted...

3:54PM--I got a two-hour nap; I probably needed it even though I didn't do that much "hiking" at Clopper Lake...it was probably the equivalent of a rather long dog walk...

my 65th Birthday? nothing special about it so far

     TUESDAY 5/19/2020 11:30AM--so far my birthday has been just like any other day...I guess I'm getting what I deserve, even if *I* don't think I deserve some of that...there will be an attempt at a nap, but I don't expect it to last as long as I might want it to...I think I'm buying myself a Potomac Pizza and some Mozzerella sticks for Dinner...we'll see...
7PM--and so I did...*I* haven't forgotten that I kinda sorta ordered a guitar from Victor Litz...not at all sure they can get it, but I haven't heard anything from them either way...almost afraid that they CAN get it...I bet if I call them to cancel the order, they'll say  "Yeah, we just got it...come and get it..." And so I will...
9PM-I think I’m gonna give up on trying to get Food Stamps, at least for now...it’s been SUCH a hassle, I accomplished NOTHING and I feel like I don’t absolutely have to have them-yet...
WEDNESDAY 5/20/2020 5:46PM--having real meatloaf for Dinner...looking forward to that...
7:20PM--it was just OK...the mashed potatoes were just ok as well...neither of 'em was all that great, and I still have half of both...I guess that will be Friday's Dinner...
THURSDAY 5/21/2020--spaghetti and meatballs for dinner--out of a can...
8PM--I get the feeling I'll be just as lonely after Life gets back to normal (if it ever does) as I am now...actually, I don't feel lonely when I'm in the 1180 Lab or hanging out with Dianne...I'm the loneliest when looking thru Flakebook...it makes me sad...

I don't WANT to leave the house...

              SUNDAY 5/10/2020 5:32 PM--I don't have an appetite, but it's time for Dinner...I'll probably have hot dogs, the brand I like...didn't really get a nap this afternoon, so hopefully I'll be in bed by 11PM, instead of two hours later...
MONDAY 5/11/2020 8:48 AM--well, I think I went to bed at 11 and slept (uninterrupted?) until 7AM...
8:41 PM--by my calculations I have a daily budget of $26 per day until the 3rd of May, that's 23 days..if I put away half of that $26 per day, I should end up with a dollar less than $300...I'd like to put $200 into Savings, and give Dianne $100 dollars more than the usual monthly amount...
TUESDAY 5/12/2020 9:30 AM-- the workers are here and they will be until about 3:30, everyday (weather permitting) until Friday...
WEDNESDAY 5/13/2020 11:16 AM--doing laundry, how exciting...hoping to go to the Post Office after my nap...or tomorrow...as for the phone call to Litz, there's also later and tomorrow...
6:20 PM--didn't call Litz yet...maybe tomorrow...dunno if they even have one, I have my doubts...did more laundry...I think I'm dammed near caught up with it...
Dianne helped me set up Netflix on the Office TV--that's worth a Snoopy Dance, but of course, I'm not at all up to it...in about an hour I'll go there to watch Star Trek, then finish the WW episode I started this morning...
THURSDAY 5/14/2020 9 AM--I think I need to go to CVS and I know I'm getting low on milk, if nothing else...I hope to call Victor Litz later...
FRIDAY 5/15/2020 7:51 PM--having trouble keeping my eyes open, dunno why...I doubt that I'll make it to 11PM much less Midnight...but I've traded Star Trek for The West Wing...
SUNDAY 5/17/2020 10:20AM--I got up this morning and thought I could build the patio furniture, specifically the table, by myself...ultimately Dianne had to help me...the finished job went 99% perfectly...
12:43 PM--dunno what I'm having for Dinner...that kinda bothers me a little, oh well...
MONDAY 5/18/2020 10:31PM--I've got at least one phone call to make tomorrow...one of them is about Medicare, the other is about food stamps...not looking forward to either one of them...

Karma, punishment-same thing sometimes

        FRIDAY 5/8/2020 9AM-I think it was yesterday I threw out a perfectly good package of hotdogs simply because I don’t like that brand of hotdogs… And I was pretty sure that no food bank would take them, because, theoretically, they could have been tainted somehow by me... Last night I left my basket of food on the counter and it all spoiled… The food in question was replacement hotdogs, cheese and baloney… So I went to Giant and spent $32 and got more food...
      In other news, my Sony earbuds died, so I thought I would go to Best Buy and buy new ones – but that’s not how it’s working these days… I ordered them online and have to go pick them up, curbside... A couple of hours later I ordered some blank CD cases...hopefully I will be able to pick it all up at the same time…Yet another attempt at learning patience…I used my debit card...I’d rather use cash...that’s how I bought the groceries...
7 PM--feeling friendless, except for Dianne...I don't hear from Lou...I've been kicked outta the FHB, so I guess it's "goodbye Stoney"--I'm OK with that, maybe...such is Life as Dad used to say...
8 PM-it’s been an interesting day, but not at all one I would wanna live over again...at least I’ve got the 1180 to keep me occupied...
9:18 PM--didn't hear back from Family Services...I'll try again on Monday...while I was sitting in the Best Buy parking lot, minding my own business when some (black) asshole called me a redneck--I'll never know why, except I figure that he was/is angry about what happened to a black man in Georgia in February...*I* didn't murder the jogger...it scared me at first, then made me angry...like I said, today was an interesting day...

too good to be true

         THURSDAY 5/7/2020 10:36 AM--went to CVS and got some meds...I think either Medicare paid for it or that "bridge" between Medicaid and Medicare took care of it...the best thing to happen in a LONG time...I celebrated by buying some Tastykake cupcakes...I also got the hot dogs I like...I threw away the other ones, because (I don't think) even a food bank probably wouldn't take 'em because the (somehow) might be tainted...*I* wouldn't do that, of course, but they have noway to know that...
                 The Zoom session with Dr. Via is coming up soon...then there's Lunch  hopefully followed by a nap followed by cleaning up the deck--a MAJOR Gov't Project which may take days...dunno when I'm gonna get back to the Lab...
12:21 PM--the session was brief yet productive...hoping to hook up with Tom again...we'll see...My GEICO payment for the month of May will alledgedly be $11.00...I'll believe it when I see it...but I would appreciate it...
4 PM--most of the dirt and glass is off of the deck, but there's still lotsa little teeny tiny bits of glass to deal with...

Tired

          SUNDAY 5/3/2020 time unknown--I’m so tired… Physically, emotionally, intellectually… For every thing that goes the way I want it to there’s something that DOESN’T go the way I want it to; maybe that’s normal but today it doesn’t feel normal…I feel as though I absolutely MUST take a nap – I don’t know how long it will last, and I don’t know what I’ll be doing after it’s over…
7:09 PM--there's been some kinda fuck-up with CVS...I THINK the problem is that Medicaid needs proof that I have (or shortly WILL have Medicare...*I* think I'm allowed to have one or the other, but not both...I hope I'm wrong but I suspect tomorrow is gonna be a long day...
MONDAY 5/4/2020 8:05 AM--I just paid off BOTH of my credit cards!!! which still leaves me with roughly $1200 in the Bank, after (maybe) Wednesday that is...there was a MAJOR error in my original computations, but I don't wanna discuss it...and it wasn't because I was rounding up...I have what I'm supposed to have...I DO plan to buy cat food; I think that's my only purchase for today...
12:18 PM--other than having about $1000 in the Bank, it has been a really sucky day...
5:46 PM--at some point today, I took at least one Clonazepam...well, it may have been two at once...and (I think) another one a bit letter...I FEEL like I've taken three...but I kinda like it..
7:37 PM--the roomie recommends getting new glasses...the Kentlands location of MyEyeDr. is (temporarily?) closed, so I'll have to go to the Fallsgrove location...maybe I'll do that tomorrow...
TUESDAY 5/5/2020 9 AM--I'm gonna go to MyEye Dr. when I'm sure my finances are settled, tomorrow or the next day...for instance, Dianne took the money I owe her and the CapOne credit card took all the money I owe them, except for $1.99...That I don't get, but I'm gonna wait a day before I start to worry...
8:10 PM-I’m not sure how or why, but I missed the call from CHIP… I couldn’t quite understand much of what the caller  said...I believe he was Oriental or Asian or whatever the proper term is… I will call them again tomorrow...even a missed call makes me feel good...
WEDNESDAY 5/6/2020 9:33 PM--I guess I'm gonna work on the Medicare stuff tomorrow...and there's the Zoom meeting with Dr. Via at (I think) 11:30 AM...we can talk about my (likely) depression...being kicked outta the band didn't cause it, but it didn't help...and my second meeting with Dr. Via possibly being my last one is a bit of a drag...I THINK the appointment is scheduled to last about 15 minutes...I'm not exactly OK with that, but I'm not in charge...