I guess "some" doctors only care about money

              TUESDAY 4/7/2020 7:38 PM--first Borelli sneaks out of Family Services, now I find out Dr. Snow has apparently left Comprehensive Primary Care...what the fuck? You mean that in 2020 Doctors can't find a way to notify a (possibly) HUGE number of their patients that they are leaving? I refuse to believe that they CAN'T but I DO believe they don't feel like it...
9:30 PM--I locked everybody out of my Flakebook page--everyone but me...so I can still take a peek if/when I wanna...I don't wanna see Dr. Via on Thursday, but I'm almost outta Xanax, and I don't wanna run completely out if I can help it...
9:48 PM--in fact I just took two of 'em, which leaves me with three...my guess is she won't give me anymore, Doctors don't like it when people self-medicate, even if the patient is right...
WEDNESDAY 4/8/2020 8:10 AM--went to Safeway, got milk and Fudgsicles...now (I think) we've got about 50 pairs of 'em...I've got lotsa cheese, and enough bologna for a couple of days if not more...I think I'm gonna take a day off from trying to contact Social Security or Medicaid or whoever...unless I spontaneously make an attempt...
10:55AM--unexpectedly, the upstairs toilet is working normally again...finally, maybe, things are turning around...
3:10 PM-I walked across the street to the mailbox to deliver the birthday card that Diane sent to Mike... And I stopped off at McDonald’s and got a hot fudge sundae; now I’m sitting on the deck there’s a slight breeze and I’m in the shade and it feels OK… As soon as I’m in direct sunlight (15 minutes if that long) I’ll go inside; I took a picture of the traffic on Darnestown Road at 3 o’clock; there wasn’t any...I think that’s usually the beginning of rush hour... Maybe I’ll try again later today or at about 5 o’clock tomorrow… Which is usually that point in time when traffic is bumper-to-bumper a mile down the road…
5:56 PM--I say it almost every day, but I really would like to be in bed before Midnight...getting nervous about the "visit" to Borelli's replacement...trying not to be angry, trying not to feel betrayed...but I am a little and I do a little...
7:42 PM--I had what used to be a very pleasant experience today, by my own hand, if ya get my drift...it was mildly enjoyable...frankly, I expected a more obvious reaction...boy, was I disappointed...oh well...
8:18 PM-getting unusually sleepy… Well let’s say the timing is unusual; I’m going to try my best to make it to 11PM before I go to bed…None of that midnight or later stuff...and I think I will take a Xanax at approximately 10 PM...