no f**kin' difference...

       WEDNESDAY 1/1/20 9:42 AM--I started out the new year with an almost total lack of tech skills, with regard to posting on Instagram...I don't think I can post anything using the laptop...but (I think) I can using the phone...like I've said countless times before, going from one year to the next is like going from one room to the next--and we don't make a big deal outta doing THAT, do we?
         And I'm having trouble with my other blog...all I wanna do is change the color of the text of one of the entries, and seemingly I can't...
1:00 PM--a woman I've had some kinda feelings for since I met her in the early 80s is apparently having major medical problems--physical, mental and (therefore) emotional...not that starting a new year is ever an uplifting experience for me anyway, but this news is especially painful to hear...I'm probably fooling myself, and it doesn't EVEN matter, but I wonder if Nancy and I could have been something other than friends...Of course, I've always been no one's idea of handsome...looks ARE important to most people, me included...
     I'm wondering if I'll ever see her again and what condition she'll be in...she'll never know how I think I feel or used to feel or could have felt about her...I'd say she and I are just about as compatible as my ex-wife and I are--which is "somewhat"...I would say Nancy and I are slightly more compatible than me and Angela...And New Year or not, none of that matters, right?
FRIDAY  1/3/2020 12:19 AM--went to the OTWC after the FHB rehearsal, mostly to see Angela...I really thought that this would be the year in which I learn to keep my Mouth shut, but no...I actually told Angela that I liked females that were not pencil thin...she had made a comment on how she looked in a photo I had taken...I suspect that in the future she will avoid me if at all possible...surely she must know I have feelings of some kind for her...