FUCK "modern" technology

      MONDAY 4:48PM--I spent the better part of an hour cataloging the contents of an unidentified CD...I was then  forced to make a playlist...I don't know why, but the song list came out NOT in order...it just wasn't worth what I went thru to get things back to normal...and THEN I saw that the BFF songs and the Roches songs were already on (separate) playlists...Dianne is home now, she's dealing with Verizon with regard to the fucked-up TV situation...and I believe she has just resolved it in a positive way...
                     I don't feel guilty about taking a Xanax in the middle of the day...maybe I should have taken two...IN MEDICAL NEWS--I think my ability to "enjoy myself" is officially a thing of the past...So when I say I'm attracted to some woman, what kind of attraction is it? I have no idea anymore...it feels in my head like a "physical" attraction...but the feeling in my head doesn't manifest itself anywhere else, and frankly, I miss that sensation...
          I don't quite need one, but I'm getting a haircut tomorrow--at 10AM...