be careful what you wish for

                "I don't think you'd hurt me, but the kisses, even on my cheek, make me nervous..."  I took a deep breath and said  "I would absolutely leave you alone if that's what you wanted...and I would kinda do the opposite--if you wanted me to go down on you right here in this parking lot, I'd do it..." Once she caught her breath, she said, "Oh Scott, I wish I could say that had strong feelings for you, but I don't...I AM your friend, that should count for something." I let out a long sigh and told Jessica "It does." She hugged me and I pressed  her tightly to my waist...I  got more than a little excited almost instantly..."Let me go" she said, with  some anger in her voice...I did, but I told her "I would never EVER hurt you, but to have that experience for the first time since I can't remember when, well, it just might have been worth making you mad at me...”
SUNDAY 6/2/19 12:42AM--the earplugs I brought from home were so-so...I bought a pair from a friend and liked them almost immediately ...I think they have 'em at CVS...Among other things I told Jessica that her boyfriend was "one lucky bastard"...At first, I went to shake her hand, but she indicated that a hug was OK...*I* said "I'm afraid I wouldn't let go..." She laughed, of course...