nothing happening yet, but...

     SATURDAY 12/15/18 5:12pm--not going out tonight...the rain has almost nothing to do with that...pretty sure I'm going to the SAW Xmas party...Not at all sure I'm gonna play there...and I'm not 100% sure I want to; it would be a major milestone, but I don't wanna be remembered as the worst performer there...and I'm pretty sure I would be...
               I'm finding it hard to remember what day it is...having mac & cheese for Dinner isn't gonna help with that, it's usually what I have on Sundays...I took a mid-morning nap before Lunch and slept soundly then took a midday nap after Lunch and slept just as soundly...The TWO Xanax I took yesterday may have something to do with that...nothing on TV for me that I know of...not that I've actually checked yet...there is a lotta stuff I recorded that I haven't seen yet...
SUNDAY 12/16/18 8:48PM--suddenly I had Band practice, so I missed the first two hours of the SAW Xmas Party...although Jay asked three times, I did NOT perform...and I don't yet regret that...I haven't yet met Eryn Michel, but I can say w/o reservation, she's, er, uh, super hot...as a writer? I dunno, but she can sing...
MONDAY- hanging out at Unique with Dianne… I have no intention whatsoever of buying anything; she said basically the same thing, but I expect she’ll find something that she absolutely has to have… I guess we’ll be having lunch out on the road somewhere... I hope we’ll be home by 2 o’clock if not sooner;  I keep thinking that the Combustibles’ gig is on Saturday; it is not-it’s on Friday... I hope Barry doesn’t forget to pick me up; I asked him about it at band practice last night...he said he would...I really want to leave the group, but there is some money to be made staying in it... so that makes me a prostitute, right?  I kept almost completely quiet about the bum notes and mistakes I heard at practice last night…
TUESDAY--suddenly about 15 minutes ago I got really sick...it's a miracle that I didn't throw up...but the other thing happened...I THINK I'm OK now...apparently stress can cause those kinda problems...