I wanna, I don't wanna I wanna I don't wanna

            SATURDAY 12/1/18 8:12AM--it's a big event tonight at the OTWC...the Crimestoppers are playing and (at least) two birthdays are being celebrated...Lenny's and Stoney's...I shouldn't want to go, but of course, I kinda do...If I don't, Sue might wonder where I was; I don't think Stoney will care...
                People say they don't care what others think, they do whatever the hell they wanna do...I wish I could be like that, but I don't think I can...So, if I go see the Crimestoppers, *I* feel a bit pathetic and I DO wonder what other people think--like, who is more pathetic? Me, Jeff or Arlene? *I* think, in order of the most pathetic first, I would say Jeff, Me, then Arlene...
           9AM--Stoney made some kinda snarky comment about the house band's performance of TALKING IN YOUR SLEEP, specifically the two guitar players--me and Butch...Fuck him, I'll stay home tonight...it's supposed to rain anyway...
 9:35AM--And Dianne doesn't want me to go...she may change her Mind but that doesn't mean I'll change mine...
5:16PM--starting to think about next week's mini Class of '73 gathering...I go back and forth on THAT too...