I don't wanna change my Mind

            SATURDAY 12/22/18 1:16PM-- I just finished Lunch! I spent an hour and a half on the phone with Stoney...he says I should think about whether or not I really wanna leave the Combustibles...*I* think I really do...
       The roomie wants to go out--now...I don't...I'm willing to go out after my midday, which is starting shortly...she mentioned going by herself, but changed her Mind about that...
SUNDAY-so we’re taking the walk the roomie wanted to take, around Lakeforest Mall...
12:47PM-had Lunch at Ruby Tuesday’s, a cheeseburger for me...by the time we get home I’ll be ready for the midday...I feel kinda weird, like I’m invisible or not all here or something...
MONDAY CHRISTMAS EVE- well I was able to connect MY iPhone to the radio in Dianne’s car, which allows me to listen to MY Spotify music, and use the phone-maybe...don’t ask me how I did it, but I did it and I think that’s really cool...
6:12PM--still depressed...not yet looking forward to the 4th Thursday open mic at the OTWC...I've taken my first baby steps toward getting my homework done...
6:46PM--can't wait until Xmas is behind us...bored, depressed, etc.
7:48PM--no change...probably gonna go to bed after Star Trek, or continue reading the book I bought earlier today--a biography of actor Jimmy Stewart...it's probably my mood, but the book feels like slow going...
XMAS DAY 8:30AM--I've been up for about an hour already, mixed feelings about that...I don't think Dianne and I are going anywhere or doing much of anything...I'm perfectly fine with that...might have a relatively early Lunch...or not...still feeling down, so there's no Plan or Schedule...