still not happy

           WEDNESDAY 11/14/18 6:30 AM-Life really seems to suck lately...I thought it would get better once we got back from NYC, but no...Dianne will be at the Doctor’s until about Noon... I brought two books to read...

11:10AM-just got home from Dianne’s appointment...can’t WAIT to have Lunch and take a nap...obviously not gonna go out tonight...probably won't go out until next Monday or Tuesday...I think Barry wants to rehearse this coming Sunday...

7:50PM--still feeling kinda down, definitely unhappy...probably will go to bed after Star Trek--AGAIN...wondering when I'm gonna feel better...

THURSDAY (I think) 11/15/18 (I think) 10:08AM--feeling a little bit better...if it wasn't SNOWING, I would consider going out tonight...I plan to go to Safeway after my nap...I just took ALL of my meds for the first time in I dunno how long...maybe that was causing problems, who knows...

    When I fell in my room, I busted up one of my bookshelves...I need to empty it and throw it away I guess...and then I'll have a box (or two) of books to deal with...

4:30PM--I've been dreaming a LOT since gulping down the Xanax and aspirin and Advil and (finally) all of my morning meds...the latest dream involved me and Roy Loomis (!) forming an acoustic group with an unidentified blond female...although we seemed to got together in Church (!) we didn't want to be perceived as a Christian group, in spite of the advice we were getting from various Church members...we seemed to get together as a result of singing Poco's YOU ARE THE ONE (?) somewhat spontaneously...

In part because of the horrible weather I ain't goin' nowhere tonight...in fact, I STILL don't feel like doing much of anything yet...

8:05PM--I hope I can get back to normal soon...well, MY normal...tomorrow would work for me...I think the Combustibles are practising on Sunday...dunno for sure, but it's possible...