getting closer to normal

               FRIDAY 11/16/18 9:36AM--I cleaned my car off and went to McDonald's and now I'm going to Giant to get some groceries...as far as I know, I've got nothing else to do...
       3:25PM--dunno if I needed permission, but I have permission to go out tonight or tomorrow night...tomorrow night seems more likely, I'll probably go to Xroads...3 Song Sadie is playing there, with an opening act...well, it's something to do, right? TEN MINUTES LATER--according to what I just saw, Angela is going...any excuse to take a shower and shave...

6:43PM--actually getting nervous/excited about going to Xroads tomorrow night...probably wasting my emotional energy...that's not new...can't quite get Angela outta my Mind...
              I dunno what's going on besides my evening plans...Dianne wants me to start gathering up all the books I've got laying around (mostly) the living room and I hope to clean up the disaster area that is my bedroom, LOTSA laundry to be done...

SATURDAY 11/17/18 10:29AM--laundry is being done, dishes too...not quite as excited about going out tonight as I was last night...feeling non-existent with regard to my Musical Life...I just don't get it...it's VERY depressing...

7:30PM-I don’t think this night out is gonna make me feel that much better...let’s see how long I stay...cause I sure feel down now...