Am *I* in charge?

             MONDAY 7/30/18 7:30AM--The SAW open mic is coming up on Thursday...Jeff Jones expressed an interest in my accompanying him that evening...haven't heard from him since he first mentioned it...Barry is also playing that night--he hasn't said a single word to me about it...Haven't heard from Cara either...I'm not chasing after anybody...I can excuse Cara, she's young, maybe a teeny bit scared of me...but Jeff Jones? no...Barry Fantle? nope...
           10:30AM--I think maybe I might be sufficiently recovered enough from the past few days of music making to possibly go out tonight--or more likely, if there's no band rehearsal, to IPO tomorrow evening...I'll wait until later today and check with Barry...I predict that if I can't/don't go to IPO, Angela will...
         Jeff just put the open mic event notice on his page, which means all his friends get it--that includes me...maybe he's prepping the song files even now...
 6:16PM--Angela MIGHT go to Crossroads open mic tonight...I'm definitely going, in case she does...the semi-bad news? I have band Practice on Tuesday, so I can't go to IPO if she does that...the good news? We have a gig Friday night...the semi-bad news? It's in New Market...
          Angela is (as of now) a definite--and now I'm scared sh*tless...seriously considering taking a Xanax...
  7:50PM-and so I did-I think it has started working...but I still need to keep myself calm...which mostly means not talking too much...
  9:46PM-she’s sitting at the same table as me...I’m trying to keep it together...
TUESDAY 1AM--I'm back home...Angela is quite the guitar player and a very good singer--but *I* hit most of the high notes...along with Alan, we did two or three Eagles songs...we played one of her songs...if nothing else, I think she knows I can play...Alan and I did Guinevere...
8:46AM--Jeff Jones is expecting me to play with him on Thursday...Barry still hasn't said a dammed thing...
9:52AM--If Angela doesn't suspect she has an admirer, I'd be surprised...I'm not assuming that she'll be at the OTWC on Thursday, but I'm kinda hoping she will be...I absolutely DON'T expect her to come out to see the Combustibles on Friday...New Market is not at all close...
5:26PM--leaving for practice in about an hour...still hoping it will get cancelled--really, will the band be that much better if we practice? nope, it won't be...and if I get all the way to Rick's house and THEN practice gets cancelled, I won't mind too much...I'll just go to IPO...
     Last night Alan, while we were discussing Barry, said basically "He enjoys what he's doing, he's not seriously hurting anybody, don't worry about it..."  Easy for him to say, he's not in a band with him...