just like when I was working

          SUNDAY 6/3/18 8AM-- looks like I'm gonna have to sell the Telecaster--quickly...and now I have a reason to apply for food stamps as well...maybe I'll go to Litz Music after my doctor's appointment; more likely I'll go on Tuesday...maybe I can apply for food stamps online...I doubt that *I* can, but I'll look into it anyway...and I owe the roomie about 500 dollars...I suddenly feel the way I did back when I was working...
            Gonna TRY to put aside all the ugliness for one more day--yeah, right...I'm pretty sure I'm gonna bow out of the Larry Holzman Project...
     And so I did, just now, via e-mail...I didn't wanna resign via text message and I wasn't gonna do it face to face...
9AM--I THINK I just applied for food stamps...that's one less thing...I actually feel a bit better than I did when I got outta bed...
5:45PM--got a catnap or two...went to CVS, chatted with Amber, bought some more foot stuff...was unable to augment my fantaciseation with any "personal pleasure"--that's a bummer...getting ready to start making the mac and cheese...
7:26PM--had a good dinner, just chillin'...thinking I'll likely go to the B72 open mic--seeing City Bus has made me wanna play...

MONDAY 5PM--still planning on going to B72...the visit with the cardiologist went well enough, even though it took awhile...hoping to go to JV's on Wednesday...I think Andy is the house drummer...I'm just afraid the hosts are gonna want me to be a temporary band leader, and that's hardly ever what *I* wanna do at an open mic...maybe I'll just go and watch...I  should probably save my strength not to mention my gas for the possible trip to Smokin’ Hot this coming Thursday--I’m just going as a visitor, I don’t expect to do much of anything while I’m there...
    In the meantime, here I am at Branded 72 I think it’s going to be a very interesting evening;
LATER- I played some bass guitar… That was interesting;  for better or for worse, Dorothy isn’t here…

I think I’ve found a buyer for the Tele... we’ll see...$100 bucks  is better than zero bucks… I could have the money as early as tomorrow night, but it would possibly mean going to Hershey’s… or somewhere in Germantown-the buyer does not have a vehicle of his own; I can certainly relate to THAT...I have done the math several times, I don’t know why I can’t put a couple hundred dollars in savings every month—but apparently I can’t…