After all, it could be worse…

          SATURDAY 10/30/21 10:26AM-I don’t think Dianne and I are going to be doing very much today, and that’s fine with me; I went to Petsmart and got the kitty litter, but I had to pay for it… Dianne’s discount card was useless because it had been damaged somehow and the “secret code” is halfway gone… luckily, I had the money; in fact I still have about $40 to play with until the check comes-I think...
      10:37AM-now we’re waiting in the Starbucks drive thru line…it isn’t taking too long…then we’re on our way to Kohl’s, after which I think/hope we’ll be going home, where I have NO plans…11:07-and now I feel SUPER oogy, like I’m gonna be sick. That’s just effing great…I deliberately didn’t have breakfast, and now I regret it; not to mention I’m very thirsty...
11:27AM-I keep misplacing my favorite hat, so I’ve switched to something slightly more sophisticated than a baseball cap…I actually don’t  know what kind of cab it is, but I call it my British Racing Cap…it should work until Winter comes, then it’s “skull cap” season…
12:15PM--having a single sandwich for Lunch--that's two days in a row!!!Dinner is a mystery though...
3:20PM--the last thing I wanna do is a Gov't Project...but suddenly, the Projet has to wait until the drill is fully charged, which I think means tomorrow...I'm gonna have to go Giant if I want dessert and something to wash it down with...that's not a Gov't Project; not usually anyway...
5:19PM--I went to Giant, got four items; I will soon need milk and eventually bread, but they can wait IMO...
9:36PM--I  think we're going to Unique Thrift tomorrow; *I* don't need anything that I know of...Not to mention I'm trying to pinch those pennies until they squeal... 
11:30PM--I was hoping to be watching ST-IV by now, but Dianne hasn't gone to bed yet...and  I took two purple capsules roughly two hours ago, I think they're kicking in now...
SUNDAY 10/32/21 12:03 AM-it’s my bedtime 

 

I just don't like mysteries

 

                

                TUESDAY 10/26/21 9:30AM--a certain feature of my phone--speech to text--mysteriously stopped working a week or so ago (the volume levels actually)...and just as mysteriously it has returned, for which I'm grateful...and I got a bill from a Doctor that I might have already paid...to be on the safe side, I'll pay it again...But the lesson learned is to keep a very DETAILED record in my checkbook regarding where my money goes...I might use a credit card OR wait until the SSA check comes...the credit card would be faster...
4:06PM--went to Giant, bought some groceries-for her and me--I used my CapOne credit card, which might see more action for the next few days...
9:43PM--maybe I should know what's going on tomorrow, but I don't--not yet anyway...
WEDNESDAY 10/27/21 9:58AM-- one thing that needs to be done today is go to Petsmart and get kitty litter...I'll take care of that after my attempted nap...*I* don't yet know when the cleaners are coming; I hope it's tomorrow...
6:30PM--Petsmart is gonna wait until tomorrow...I suppose I could go while the cleaners are here...*I* would like to know WHEN they're coming...
9:08PM--they're coming "in the morning"--whenever that is...
THURSDAY  10/28/21 10AM-The cleaners showed up about an hour ago… If it takes them two hours to do everything I should be able to go back home shortly after 11 o’clock… in the meantime, my phone is behaving in a strange way… Of course I don’t know why that is and there’s nothing I can do about it that I know of – such is life I guess…I THINK Giant Food took the magazines out of the store, except at the registers… So I don’t know if I should/could buy something to read for the next hour or so…I have $76 to last six days; that should be enough to last until the SSA check comes in…
FRIDAY 10/28/21 4:45PM--rainy days and Fridays get me down too...I'm deliberately trying to eat less, not trying hard enough, but still...I was gonna add a hot dog to the grilled cheese sandwich I had, but changed my Mind...besides, I still have the cheese doo-dads, if I get hungry...

 

problem solved?

 

              TUESDAY 10/19/21 4:30PM--all of a sudden, after getting a tankfull of gas, the brake light went OUT...I guess it takes awhile for the fluid to make its' way from the brake fluid reservoir thru to the rest of the brake system...I thank the Universe, and yet remain cautiously optimistic...
     On the other hand, something is going on with United Health Care...I'm afraid I'm gonna have to call 'em...not looking forward to THAT...
9:04PM--wishing I could skip Wednesday and get right to Thursday...some guy (or guys) will be here tomorrow to build the kitchen table and chairs...yaay--I guess...CVS has medicine waiting for me; 
      I bought some chocolate to eat when I crave chocolate...The roomie would rather NOT know about it, so I'll have to hide it somewhere...
10:30PM--well, I accomplished something this evening...I paid a Doctor bill...the roomie doesn't yet know about it and she doesn't NEED to know about it...I gotta get back into taking magnesium malate again--after breakfast and Lunch...I have no idea why, but I just stopped...I think it was helping me feel better, generally...
WEDNESDAY 10/20/21 12:55PM--I need to go to CVS, so I'll mail the check then...it has been a good day so far...
10:47PM--that was then, this is now...the vet reccommended giving the cat something to calm her down before bringing her in--she violently oppossed that idea...both the roomie and I lost a teeny bit of blood in the attack...I think tomorrow is gonna be a long day...
THURSDAY 10/21/21 7:45AM --the cat won't even eat her breakfast, she knows something's going on...this whole process is hard on my Heart--if I let it get to me, that is...
11:45AM--again I got something done...the boxes that the kitchen table and chairs came in are now, thanx to me, at the Re-cycleing Facility...it was a bit of a Gov't Project, but I handled it, alone...
FRIDAY 10/22/21 10PM--gonna go hang out with the ex-in-laws tomorrow...nothin' better to do, unless I'm forgetting something...
SATURDAY 10/23/21 8:30AM--going out soon...dunno when I'll be back...I think Dianne is doing a hangout with her sister today or tomorrow--THAT I'm looking forward to..
5:49PM--went shopping at Unique Thrift Store, not the one we usually go to...this one has a Value Village attached to it, you can go from one to the other without leaving the store(s).We skipped the Value Village (thank you Universe) and went to Lunch at Riderwood...still dunno exactly what's going on tomorrow....
MONDAY 10/25/21 9:12AM--due to yesterday's rather unpleasant musical outing, I'm just gonna observe what goes on on Flakebook, for a few days, maybe longer......

sometimes I forget

 

    SATURDAY 10/16/21 8:15AM--yesterday I had a good space in the fridge for my soda...Dianne took it away, *I* dunno why...and then I remembered--90% of the stuff in this house, and the house itself, is hers...I have little if any, say in what goes on here...I guess I keep forgetting we're divorced...
         In a little while we're going to visit her parents...the facility where they live is having a resident's rummage  sale...I think I can guarantee Dianne will buy stuff...I suspect the residents were not/are not from the working class, like a guy from Glen Burnie (me) is...I can't imagine seeing the kind of stuff I see at flea markets at Riderwood, but ya never know...
   The trip to Riderwood is off; Dianne's Mom doesn't feel good, at all...and her sister fell down for some reason and "smashed up her face"...my shoulder  still hurts too BTW...I don't think the goop is working...
12:17 PM – we are at Unique and I’m hating it… they’ve downsized the non-fiction section of the book department… I don’t know why… and they’ve moved all the chairs that were upfront and put them somewhere else – I don’t know where… Dianne’s just barely started shopping;
4:45PM-we left Unique and went to iHOP, came home...I didn't get an afternoon nap...I dunno why; I THOUGHT I wanted/needed one...
10:35PM--I have discovered that my car's brakes are not functioning properly...I THINK it was because the road was wet, but in any case, I slid right thru an intersection...I am especially grateful to the Universe that I was alone--no other cars in it but mine...a very scary moment, I gotta say...it could be a total lack of brake fluid--I try to keep an eye on the oil, but haven't thought about brake fluid until today...
11:26PM--I shouldn't have mentioned my automotive problem to the "roomie"--*I* am perfectly happy to spend the money to buy a bottle of brake fluid and try it first...IF the fluid leaks out, THEN I'll assume the problem is more serious than a lack of fluid...how can I buy the fluid and fill the brake fluid [container] without Dianne finding out? What I COULD do is check the level when she goes to CVS tomorrow and buy the fluid from the gas staion across the street while she's at work on Monday...
SUNDAY 10/17/21 2:12PM--the minute the roomie left to go "have some fun", I checked the level, it looked to be bone dry to me, so I went across the street and bought a bottle of brake fluid...it's the right type and it only cost about $3 bucks...judging from my admittedly brief test runs, I did the right thing and I'm 90% sure the problem is solved--for now...I'm not capable of doing the Snoopy Dance, but if I could, I certainly would...
4:31PM--I wasn't going to, but I told Dianne about the Brake Fluid Caper...Like me, she (I think) assumes that that was the problem...I sure hope we're right....
MONDAY 10/18/21 10:55AM--so far most of what I've been doing is laundry...I have to go ro CVS and Safeway--a good test drive for the car...
TUESDAY 10/19/21 8:38AM--hopefully today will get better, because it has begun rather badly...
11AM--Dianne just gave away the kitchen table and its' chairs...I'm gonna go see if I can find the library book I need to return by tomorrrow...found it, right where I thought it would be...thank you Universe...as for the rest of the day, who knows? Gail is doing her twice daily walk around the court where I live...I'm not quite up to chatting with her today...she just passed the house, I suspect she was looking for me...

I almost wish I had a job

 

        SUNDAY 10/10/21 2:48PM--well,  it's taken about four years but I'm almost ready to admit that retirement is (for the moment) quite boring...for whatever reason (the pandemic?) there are supposedly  lots of openings out there...the problem is that my body is failing, and not slowly either...some of my problems are fixable, perhaps...but some of them might not be...And of course I can always use the money...
3:30PM-so Dianne and I are out and about… She is at LensCrafters picking up her glasses, after which we’re going to stop at Giant so we can buy some groceries; I really hope we’re not at Giant very long; I’d like to be home by 5:00 if not sooner…
7:36PM--so we got home at 5 o'clock...I actually tried to get a mini-nap before Dinner, but that didn't happen...there's so much going on this coming week, my head is starting to hurt (almost)...
MONDAY 10/11/21 2:35PM--well, the GAC guy has come and gone and the trimmers seem to be almost finished...tomorrow is looking to be WAY more hectic...not looking forward to THAT...
TUESDAY 10/12/21 8AM--I still don't exactly know what all is supposed to happen today, I just think there's a lot of it...
8:51AM--I THINK everything that was in the old (larger) fridge is now in the new (smaller) one...and of course, like almost always Dianne is being a mule whenever *I* make any suggestion...if we just take ONE shelf outta the fridge we'd have more room, for the taller things-like a gallon of Milk...when the chaos has subsided (whenever that will be) I will at the very least imagine that I'm doing the Snoopy Dance...as for disposal of the old kitchen cabinet, I think I can guarantee that she won't wanna spend the money to pay someone to take it away...it's gonna be a long day...Monday was an unusually good day...the Universe might be messing with me, and there's nothing I can do about it...
7:16PM--and again, I write some stuff and it disappears...First the cabinet guys came and built the thing quickly enough, then the fridge guys showed up and did their thing--rather quickly...aparrently the Home Depot guys were incompetent...
WEDNESDAY 10/13/21 9:09AM--the fridge removal guys should be here any minute now...they don't speak English...why am I NOT surprised? I don't think there's anything else going on today--Dianne is in charge of re-stocking the new kitchen closet/cabinet thingie...dunno when that's gonna be finished, probably gonna take a couple days...
9:52AM--the fridge guys and the fridge itself are gone...now the new kitchen table and chairs are here, but they need to be built--by *I* dunno who exactly...
10:05AM--I really should be doing laundry, but I don't feel like it--yet...
3:33PM--now I'm doing my laundry...in other news, I have somehow hurt my left shoulder, and not just a little bit...I don't EVEN know how I did it...whatever I did I don't wanna do it again...this sudden injury is gonna affect EVERYTHING I do...
THURSDAY 10/14/21 12:30PM--the first floor is SUCH a mess, Dianne asked the cleaning people ar coming tomorrow, to give us time to TRY to straighten it up a little,,,My shoulder still hurts but I have plans to go out tonight anyway...
FRIDAY 10/15/21 11:32AM--since I started going to ALL DAY MEDICINE, my "med connection" has left the practice, and now my therapist (Yolanda) is leaving...so now I'm on a waiting list, because of the insurance I have...but my first meeting with my new med connection (Habibatu) went well IMO...I'm actually kinda happy, except for the tummy ache...
4:25PM--the tummy ache is gone..the cleaners are still here--they've been here about 90 minues so far I think...I stopped off at Best Buy and got some earbuds...I'll try 'em out later; I left them in the car...I was gonna go to Safeway and get mashed potatoes but I don't have the energy...so I'm having meatloaf and corn-probably on the cob, which is just OK...I'm not complaining, only because I shouldn't...

I REFUSE to live with Alzheimer's

 

                 WEDNESDAY 10/6/21 9PM--I'd rather be dead than "live" with Alzheimer's...I'd better get my affairs in order soon, cause (*I* believe) it's starting...
                THURSDAY 10/7/21 9:20AM-considering the fight that Dianne and I had last night, you would think she wouldn’t WANT  me to go to the doctor's with her – but she did… So she woke me up from a sound sleep at 7 o’clock and now here I am in the parking lot of the doctors office waiting for her to finish the second of two tests… I am considering praying that we go home after that test is over… except that she wants to stop off at Trader Joe’s…I’m thinking it’s going to be a long LONG day…I don’t expect us to get home before 11 o’clock
                            I’m SO glad I theoretically have plans for this evening… I don’t expect us to get home before 11 o’clock… To me, that really sucks; if I can work up the courage, I will ask Dianne if we could go home and she could drop me off before going grocery shopping…I asked, She said NO…Sometimes she only thinks of herself…and she accuses ME of that…
10:35AM-I really want to be back in bed by 12:30… This means having lunch pretty much as soon as we get home, which might be as early as 11 AM… I’m supposed to bring some clean clothes and/or towels up from the basement for Dianne to work on, but I’d like to know what time she’s going to work on them… If it’s after work then I need not hurry; if it’s while she is working I will need to get that stuff as soon as we get home… and I don’t exactly know what I’m going to do for dinner tonight… I said earlier it’s going to be a long long LONG LONG day…and so far it has been…I guess I'll have to go to Safeway after whatever nap I get...
3:35PM--and so I did...got some groceries, my own stamps, and turned my jar full of change into enough money to buy the BW autobio on Amaon...and have some money left over...suddenly it's a good day...
    I'm gonna change my clothes (most of 'em) and wash my hair then I'm ready to go to Hershey's...first I'll have Dinner...gonna  leave at 5PM to go get Sue El...or not, there may have been a slight change of plan--maybe...
FRIDAY 10/8/21 9:38AM--I don't think Dianne and I have any weekend plans, at least as far as *I* know...and I'm fine with that...
7:15PM--I was wrong, there IS something happening tomorrow--the new refrigerator is arriving, anytime after 9AM..the kitchen is a disaster area AND the fridge needs to be emptied out...TWO Gov't Projects at once....
SATURDAY 10/9/21 10:17 AM--the new fridge is here...unfortunately so is the old one...the new one has a water dispenser, which we CAN'T USE until a plumber does whatever a plumber has to do to get it going...it was a MAJOR Gov't Project IMO...but my part is (I think) over, at least for a little while...
2:47-well, Dianne and I went to IHOP for lunch; the refrigerator project is on hold until I dunno when…
6:07PM--it's a bit chaotic in the kitchen...we're still in limbo; other than food, I don't know where anything is...I THINK somebody's coming on Momday to do something...

Not quite first, but it's done

          

                SUNDAY 10/3/21 6:30AM we are at the Covid testing site, fifth in line…it opens at 7AM…unless they open early to handle the (probably) large amount of anticipated traffic…trying to be optimistic about our departure time…
6:58AM-naturally there’s a lot of paperwork to do first…I suppose it’s inevitable, right? Again I’m trying not to get excited about getting back home well before lunchtime…
7:25AM-FINISHED!!! I dunno what happens next, but I’m OK with that…
MONDAY 10/4/21  10:30AM--recovering from my busy weekend...looking forward to doing nothing...it feels like Sunday; I'm even having mac & cheese for dinner...
4:30PM--Flakebook is f**ked up, and it's not just mine...when it's gonna go back to "normal" is beyond me...I admit that I can't stand to be w/o it...kinda pathetic, ain't it? Not only can I NOT post anything new, I can't even read the old stuff...that really sucks...
6PM--I hope I don't jinx it, and the day is almost over, but it's been a good day up til now...the nap was a really good one...can't remember when I've had a better one...wondering how much sleep I'm gonna get tonite though...
TUESDAY 10/5/21 9:37AM--other than not being able to find my phone, it's been a good day so far...hopefully I won't have to go anywhere, although I need to buy stamps and send a check to a certain medical facility...Dianne doesn't need to know and I'M not gonna tell her...
9:30PM-Dianne has a doctors appointment tomorrow morning in Frederick it’s a procedure that will probably take two hours or so… Not really looking forward to being a part of that, but it’s a lower form of support I guess… 
WEDNESDAY  10/6/21 10AM-So here we are in Frederick for Dianne’s procedure…None of the places I might have gone to are within walking distance…and I don’t wanna get lost…So I’m gonna be sitting somewhere for quite awhile…possibly until 2PM…
2PM-I THINK she just went into recovery… I think she’ll be in there for a half an hour or so… We’re both going to need a nap when we get home – for different reasons…I went to the Cafeteria for Lunch...
2:36PM-she’s going to eat some crackers and drink a little something and then they’re going to bring her down to what I call the lobby and while they’re bringing her down I go get the car… I hope to be in bed by 3:30, which isn't  all that late really…
7:48PM--didn't get home until about 4PM (!)--the nap started at around 4:30, lasted about an hour or so...I hope to be back in bed by 11PM or...