SUNDAY 3/7/2021 4:09PM--I announced my Musical retirement on Ray's Fakebook page, four hours ago...no reaction of any kind...and that's one reason I quit playing...that must sound like an ego thing...and maybe it is...I never said I was the greatest, or acted like I was, or acted like I thought I was...but I was (IMO) pretty good...and some people indicated that they liked what I was doing--maybe they were lying...maybe they just didn't wanna hurt my feelings...
6:47PM--still no reaction to my retirement announcement--a good indicator that my Musical career (if not my whole Life) was a waste of Time...pretty depressing if you ask me...
On March the 13th (a Friday) I played what has turned out to be my last public performance...On May 16th, three days before my 65th birthday, I posted a video on youTube of a solo recording I did--my arrangement of BABY'S IN BLACK...with the exception of a sit-in with Lou in his back yard, and a pair of "jams" with my ex-brother-in-law in HIS backyard, that was the last time I willingly played guitar...and I still don't miss it-- at all...
7:31PM-it may seem delusional but I still think if someone else "twiddled the knobs" I could come up with an album's worth of good original Music...I would possibly throw in a cover or two, who knows...
10:30PM--I THOUGHT I wrote an entry reflecting on the fighting that Dianne and I did earlier today, but (naturally) NOW I don't see it...
11:18PM--about eleven hours now, STILL not a single comment...from ANY body...not even Ray himself...like I said, all those compliments I DID get all those years ago, and there were a few, feel like lies people told me...
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