SUNDAY 6/28/2020 10:52PM--I'm more depressed than I thought...all I wanna do is sleep...and yet I have trouble sleeping at night...I called Family Services weeks ago and left a message indicating that I wanted to hear from Tom...I never did; I told Dr. Via to have Tom contact me--I guess she didn't relay the message, *I* dunno why...I guess I'll call FS tomorrow and leave another message...
It saddens me to find out that a certain woman I'm very attracted to apparently isn't practising "social distancing", which may be a clue that she thinks the pandemic is over--or worse she thinks it's a hoax...She probably doesn't know how I feel about her and she'll likely never ever know...which is OK ultimately, because I can no longer do what I would want us to do if we were alone--if ya get my drift...
Like I've said before, being confined to my place of residence (other than trips to the grocery store) doesn't bother me at all...possibly because I'm so depressed and don't feel like going out anyway...even if there was no pandemic and all the bars and other Music venues were doing business as usual, I still wouldn't feel like socialising...I can't think of anybody I wanna hang out with anyway...Other than my "roomie", I have no (real) friends...just lotsa fake ones...and she is concerned about us being together 24/7...actually she has things that we don't share, but only a couple of them...I don't have any such things except (maybe) the 1180 Lab.
And that's the stuff that I wanna talk to Tom about...I haven't been to the 1180 Lab lately; I barely feel like a Musician anymore, in spite of having a cyber-conversation with Terre Roche about guitars and playing Music...
Slowly but surely I'm unfollowing some of my so-called "friends" on Flakebook...I don't think I've unfriended anybody yet...but it's not outta the question that I will...
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