shoulda stayed in bed

               SUNDAY 7/21/19 9:38AM--I'm so fucking sick of misplacing my phone...if I'm gonna end up having Alzheimer's, I'll commit suicide--rather than be a burden to Dianne...the "joke" about Alzheimer's is the person who has it doesn't know they have it...it's the family and/or loved ones that suffer because of it...
  12:15PM--feeling kinda "blah", to put it mildly...I would like to NOT give a damn what people think of me, but of course, I care plenty...I can't shake that feeling of being lumped in with people that *I* don't like all that much...maybe I AM as "eccentric" as the people that I'm thinking about...
   8:12PM- I spontaneously renewed my battle with technology with regard to my iPhone…This time I won the fight… I no longer need my four digit security code to unlock my phone; and I can always re-in-state that particular security measure if I find myself out in public… especially since I keep losing my phone… 
  10:21PM--It's possible that I'm gonna make what I might call a major purchase tomorrow...naturally, I'm getting nervous about it...I think I can return the item if I don't pass the audition...it shouldn't take long for the other members of the ACME band to make a decision, right? Either I'm a good enough keyboard player or not...
MONDAY 7/22/19 6:07PM--So I bought a piano bench and a powered speaker...and I'm getting nervous about the keyboard audition...I have a history of over reaching...I hope that's not what I've done with the keyboard audition idea...frankly, considering what the ACME Band sounds like now, I think that some songs will be improved by my keyboard playing...naturally, Dianne wonders what happens if I DON"T pass the audition...
TUESDAY 7/23/19 10:47AM--the keyboard audition is tonight...I'm pretty sure I will need at least one Xanax by then...I AM gonna try to take a nap after Lunch, but I don't expect it will last long...I mean it will be even shorter than usual...a little bit of good news, I know what I'm having for Dinner...that's one less thing to worry about...
        12:36PM--among other things I don't like about Flakebook is that it reminds me that I'm not now and likely won't ever be in another "romantic" relationship...by "romantic" I men "physical" and by "physical" I mean "sexual"...of course, the fact that my "equipment" no longer functions in that manner has everything to do with it...