welcome back? or go away?

                 FRIDAY 6/7/19 7:07PM--Dianne is back; I feel a little less lonely and I'm sure the animals are
happy she's back as well...I'm staying in tonight, but it's gonna be a busy weekend...we're going to see a  movie tomorrow, after which I might go out to see the Crimestoppers (sigh) at Hershey's (another sigh) but not w/o my earplugs...Sunday we're brunching with Dianne's parents...beyond that, I know nothing...
              SATURDAY 6/8/19 2:42PM--dressed to go to the movies and Dinner, and after a change of shirts, Hershey's...I dunno who will be there, but Jessica says she won't be...I don't think Angela will be there either...oh well...we're leaving in about 30 minutes...
             The movie itself has been getting lukewarm reviews, but I already paid for the tickets, so...Dinner is a mystery at this point...hopefully the food court has something for me to eat...
    They did--McDonald's...
SUNDAY 1:02AM--I went to Hershey's, hung out, helped sing CINNAMON GIRL...no matter how hard I try, I can't be shy and introverted--that's not me...and I fell "in love" again--her name is Ann......by Dawn I will hopefully have extinguished the feeling--whatever it's REALLY called...she was a NOT skinny woman with dark hair and she was wearing glasses...in addition, I hung out a little with Carolyn--and Jeff Jones...that was not easy...looking at Facebook, specifically the aforementioned Ann, who I don't know and Shelly Williams (!) who I used to know so long ago has made me feel kinda lonely...or something...
8:19AM--and I still feel the same way this morning...my ears aren't ringing quite as much as usual, that's good news...I'm doing Laundry, and there's still a lot of it...I'm not gonna be able to wear shorts, but that's OK, I've got pairs of long pants I can wear--that aren't bluejeans...
5:35PM--actually I DID wear shorts to the Brunch with Dianne and the ex-in-laws...on the way back home I started thinking about Ann and how some other guy (Joe) seemed to be connecting with her--leaving his friend? girlfriend? date? chatting with ME...her name is Shelly, which has gotten me thinking about MY Shelly, who never ever was mine to begin with...she turned 61 a few days ago...she looks great, not that my opinion matters any...and while I DID wish her a happy birthday, I don't expect her to reply...but wouldn't that be nice? Even "leave me alone!" might be better than nothing at all...I'm not quite as happy as I was when I arrived at Hershey's last night...which was fairly happy...