I could go either way OR f**k it

SATURDAY 9/22/18 11:48AM--I believe I was personally invited to go see Liz Springer at Hershey's tonight...I might go, after Dinner with the ex-in-laws...but if I'm too tired or sleepy, I'll stay home...and I still don't think going out will make me feel better emotionally...

 3:20PM--I've broken TWO strings in an attempt to re-string the "Strat" XII...so fuck it, for two or three songs? It's. Just. Not. Worth. It. So I guess I'll be using the Gizmo after all...as for the $65 guitar itself, it's gonna gather dust sitting in the corner of my bedroom...fuck...
                           Starting Monday, I'll start working on DIAMONDS AND RUST, the Joan Baez song Bonnie wants to do...it probably won't sound like the record, but I'm OK with that...
   8:50PM—maybe I’ve got “cooties” or worse...A FEW MINUTES LATER-the waitress at Hershey’s was not at all happy with my decision to just have a soda while they/she was still serving Dinner...so I left, and I won’t be back if *I* have my way...maybe it's some new policy, I dunno--but if so, it sucks...
          Something special might be happening soon...11:35PM-just got offstage from sitting in with the Hayley Fahey Trio...my guitar playing got quite a few compliments; I personally thought I did OK...
MIDNIGHT-naturally Angela went to Hershey’s...not that there's anything to BE over, but it's over between us as far as I'M concerned...
SUNDAY 1:05AM--just got in from the OTWC...would be glad I went even if I hadn't sat in with the group appearing there...
9:12AM--been up since about 8:30...with quite a stomach ache...I DID have a grilled cheese samich at the OTWC...I actually remember looking at it and hoping the cheese wasn't stale...it looked funny to me; apparently my instincts were good...I can't go anywhere in this condition...eventually the roomie is going to the grocery store, I'm hoping she'll bring back some cheese baloney and bread...I'M not going anywhere, feeling like this...I mean physically, BTW...emotionally? still feeling so-so...
3:48PM--I MIGHT look into asking Litz to put strings on the fake Strat XII...I KNOW  they'll charge for that, but I dunno how much...or (it IS easier in so many ways) I'll just say f**k it...
         I've decided to go to Giant and get a bunch of soda; I have nothing else to do and there's likely nothing on TV that interests me...got the soda and a box of cereal...
           The roomie is going out to Dinner shortly...kinda looking forward to having the TV to myself...still don't think there's anything on...
   And I dunno for sure, but maybe my body's ready for a plate full of mac and cheese...
8:27PM--so far, my mac and cheese dinner seems to be agreeing with me...I haven't had dessert yet; I'm a bit nervous about it...