The right decisions ?

WEDNESDAY 6:40PM— I don’t see how the open mic here at IPO can start at seven when there’s no one here setting up equipment… I’m starting to wonder or wish I’d gone to Arlington...
           Except that I just talked to a guy who informed me that not only will Del be here, he’s running the proceedings… I don’t think this open mike is going to start on time unless I help with the load-in; I need the exercise…  The guy I just talked to is going to Agrodolce in Germantown... and Rick the sound guy just arrived-he has all the equipment…
    Del IS here,  but I don’t think he can help me with my BR 1180 tutelage after all... but here is where I am, and here I will stay…
LATER- Michelle is here; I think I'm going to let her write words to the song that I currently call LAVENDER DAWN...anything can happen...
8:40PM- as this is an official SAW open mic, everyone’s playing originals--so I might not have too much to do tonight…I hinted to Michelle that I wouldn’t mind joining her, if she needs/wants me to...Greg didn’t ask me if I wanted to play along with him… neither did Robert-until AFTER he was finished...maybe Greg found out I was gonna be (possibly) working with Larry...they used to be in a band together...Larry sez Greg is a control freak...
         I’m starting to look forward to the SAW songwriting workshop on Saturday, a little...next Wednesday I hope to go to Arlington; maybe I’ll check to see if Andy’s gonna go too-maybe that will influence my decision...
              Suddenly I’m not 100% sure that I WILL be playing with Michelle… I don’t get it--I took a shower and I shaved…oh well...I’m not gonna beg anybody for the chance to play… and I’m not going to share any of my music with Michelle unless SHE brings it up before she leaves here tonight...I’m betting she’ll forget...I haven’t EVEN talked about my fear of standing onstage by myself...There’s really little if any point in writing songs if you’re not brave enough to go on stage and play ‘em, right?
9:40PM-now I’m sorry I didn’t go to Arlington tonight... as far as collaborating with Michelle or anyone else, maybe *I* can write lyrics to fit the music that I previously wrote…
10:17 PM- thanks to Ethan, I got to sing (the wrong verse) and play the Weight...I’m not sure that it was worth the wait ha ha...and I might have more or less confessed to a woman I'd never met that I had been cyber-stalking her on FB...it turns out her son remembers me from a Gazebo Jam we both attended a hundred years ago...and I caved; *I* reminded Michelle about our discussion and recorded the song on her phone...
THURSDAY--I don't think I'll be going anywhere tonight...and I don't think Dianne is either...she comes home worn out...I'm starting to worry a bit...